Sunday, March 30, 2003

today has got to be the luckiest day on earth for me..... well, maybe not the luckiest day... but it was an extraordinarily good day. you wanna know why? come have a seat and i'll relate to you my happenings for today ;)

i went to Kinokuniya today, they were having some literature book day/week thingy and was giving away rm10 vouchers with every rm50 purchased... the staff are such nice ppl :)

i went up to the counter to ask a lady about the book i was looking for [saiyuki reload]... sheeshh... because it was embarassing man... to go there and ask... having all these ppl lurking around.. maybe even eavesdropping on what you're asking.. but it wasn't too bad because it the lady i spoke to was a malay.. if it was a japanese lady then i wouldn't have had the guts to go.. afraid she might give me some weird look :p

then this lady goes and call another guy.. assuming he can read/understand japanese.. and i was cursing at the back of my mind... hehe... thought i coulda avoid the embarassment... of being strangely into these kinda stuff... however, he was so helpful, i was greatful for going up to them in the first place :)

we first went to the shelf that had the books... right at the bottom, so we were squatting and checking it out. then, he said that reload was not there... but there were other saiyuki books but wasn't sure what they were. even i wasn't because everything on the cover was in japanese writing so i couldn't make it out whether it was the manga or what... so he actually opened the plastic wrapping for me so that i can check myself what book it was. it was the manga, and i didn't want those. i managed to download the scanlations on my pc. also next to the saiyuki books were a few Wild Adpater mangas by minekura kazuya as well [book 1 & 2 were both there - so i got those.. yes, i have them in my possesion.... mwahahaha!!]

then i asked whether there were any of the books in english [hehe.. trying my luck here!] he told me to hold on and was kind enough to check in the stock room if whether the book i was looking for in english was available.. and went back the second time to check for the japanese version when he told me there wasn't an english one... but also dun have lar... so i made an order for the saiyuki reload manga... hehe :þ

now comes the best part :)

he gives me a call later today and asks about my order. then tells me that apparently, there's a saiyuki reload 2 and asked if i wanted to order that too... fuh.... i was so happy... so i said yes. cool or what uh? i get to have the 2nd book even before it's known to the world over here.. mwahahahaha!! now i have two books waiting for me to pick up.

*sighs dreamily*

ahh... that's the biggest event for today. and that ppl have been bugging me to go learn japanese. even one of my friends said he'll join me if i did. so cool! :) i might just take him up on that offer...

that's it for this entry.. just wanna express my excitedness somewhere. ja!

Friday, March 28, 2003

i just got an email... actually 3... plus one more yesterday from the fanfiction bot telling my that someone has reviewed one of my fics. i was hysterical... just recovered though :p

so i quickly opened the emails and read them... well, i deleted them before reading because i wanted to see it in the site itself.. hehe.. i know, it's weird.. but i'd rather look at the "collection" of reviews i got at one go than view it one by one... so, i got all excited... all of 'em telling my how mean i was for leaving a very bad cliffhanger. yeah, it was bad actually. however... i hadn't continued since the second installment of the story because i was.. lazy, need to have the right feelings to potray the idea... and also no inspiration.. my muse went on a holiday and ain't back as yet. well i was just too busy with college work to even have the time anyways.

therefore, this weekend... maybe even tonight (with the new motivation i got from the oh-so-kind readers) if i get the chance. i have begun a bit... it's always the begining that's the problem. have too many ideas how to put it and everytime i'm changing the "conversation" or scene. wondering which is better??

the trick is, to stop wondering and just get to putting it down in writing... that way, the story will go on and there'll finally be an end. at some point. heh... kinda almost forgot that i should be finishing up the story though... :þ

someone once mentioned that if you're having writer's block, try writing another story... complete different storyline.. then you'll be able to continue with the pending one. hmmm.... maybe i should. but what should i write about?? ahh... so much for writing. i ain't an easy task i tells ya!


on a different note, i am proud to announce that i've finally finished the project specification form and managed to submit it 30mins before the deadline. yes, i thrive to live on the edge. one day for sure kena lar... then i'll have myself to blame!! however, this is not the end of the project. no sir-ee! i remember saying something about 8months? well, actually.. i only have 6 1/2 months left. and you'd think.. 'wow.. that's a lot of time. what are you complaining about?' i'm complaining about the fact that it isn't a lot of time! in fact i think i'm behind schedule. imagine, i gotta start coding in about 4 months and i haven't even started proper "research" work.

oh well...

Monday, March 24, 2003

a couple of tests i just did. interesting uh? i kinda like sarah mclachlan :)

sarah's eyes

SARAH MCLACHLAN is: Deep, multitalented and Passionate. You believe in love and dreams. You play a lot of instruments with great talent and write wonderful lyrics. You fell in love with your drummer just like so many people seems to love your artwork. You used to have great curls and your eye shape is stunning. You know that you're "Full Of Grace".

Who's your musical alter ego? brought to you by Quizilla


being a punk rocker? hmm....



You are a Punk Rocker - you like it loud and bass heavy - you saty up late jamming with your band and you LOVE it!!

What kind of Musician are you? brought to you by Quizilla


oh.. this is even better...

80% seme

80% Seme

How seme are you? brought to you by Quizilla


and then there is...



You are a freeform writer. Individualistic with a sense for the different and challenging, Walt Whitman and his poetry lacking meter and rhyme is just what the doctor ordered. You're quick to write something that the rest of the world doesn't accept as poetry, quick to separate yourself from the average joe. An author with a true sense of self, you have confidence in your abilities and aren't afraid to show it. :) GO YOU!

What's YOUR Writing Style? brought to you by Quizilla
i was surfing thru some very talented blog sites and... man... puts me to shame!!

*shame... shame on you!!*

they're so beautiful. i wish i was creative as they are. i love the way the background pictures nicely blends with the layout and the words and etc... if only i had more time on my hands. oh well.

that reminds me... gotta finish up some pending work, due *ackk* thursday!!!

Sunday, March 23, 2003

*yay*

i've finally got broadband and now i'm on a downloading streak :þ
wait... i'll update later... still got more surfing & downloading to do... mwahahahaha!!!

and also yesterday was once heck of a loooooooonnngggg day!!! every hour of it was occupied by something if it wasn't just plain breathing. okay, will be back later. hopefully i can tear myself away from all these.... downloading!!!

*shrieks*

Wednesday, March 19, 2003

it's been a boring, tiring, long day!! why? will let you know of how my day started from getting out of my bed to finally sitting infront of this screen typing :)

first off, i get up at 8am. why should i have when my alarm was actually set at 8.30am?? my maid took down the curtains in my room yesterday, so i was greeted by the sun's shining rays.. which usually doesn't bother me, but was far to bright today. anyways, got ready n all for college and waited for a ride from a friend who was suppose to pick me up at 9.30 but decided to get up late and only came by in the end at about 10am. well, it doesn't really make a difference to me.. cause my class only starts at 11am.

so i start the day at college with the most boring subject taught by the most boring lecturer!! and to top it all of, we actually have TWO classes of the same subject in one day. 3 hrs of database management systems [dbms] in one day ain't entertaining at all. especially when you've got a monotonous lecturer. so, like during the first class of dbms [11-12.30pm] i was in la la land as usual [ie, spacing out / daydreaming] and suddenly the lecturer asks me a question which i had no clue what it was. so happen my friend sitting next to me said "yeah, should be the same" and then lecturer asked, "is it the same?" so i just nodded and answered yes. to what, i had no clue until he said it was actually NOT THE SAME! how embarassing.

then he continues with, "i remember telling y'all that you shouldn't read the slides because it's meant for me, and the answer was on the slide [projected right in front of the class at that moment] and at least she [referring to me] did something correct. not reading the slide" sheesh!! one of the biggest draw backs of sitting in the last row at the back.

so after that, continued by another big embarassment. after we had lunch, we had another class. different subject, from 1.15-2.45pm and my group [me being the leader] was suppose to be the first to present. so it was all agreed upon that one of the other members went up to present only to find out [to my greatest shock] he [that person who was suppose to present] was basically mumbling and wasn't able to explain our project from the slides that i did. isk!! so i took over and explained the first part then passed it to him, still mumbling and barely speaking up in the microphone. i coulda pulled my hair out, but that would've just added on to my "most embarassing moments" list. then after that, it was continued with more boring presentation from other groups which i did not intend to bother listening.

the came the third and final more boring class of all. i almost slept off a couple of times. the air conditioning in the class was just nice, and it was 'tutorials' from students about sql to the class [yes, this is the second dbms class for the day] and so their softer more gentler voices [compared to the strict monotonous lecturer's] lulled me threateningly to sleep. class finished by 4.45pm and i thought i was home free. but that was too good to be true.

i get a msg from my dad after class that my mom will only be there to pick me up at 5.15pm [which surprisingly she came right on the dot!!] but i wasn't too bothered about the time. i wasn't rushing home for anything... 'cept that nice comfy bed in my room. on the way home, it was raining cows & buffalos. could barely see the car in front of us. got home by about 5.30-ish and realized am suppose to go to the temple for a function today at 6.

today is a celebration called 'holi' where people [namely hindus] play with colors and water, splashing among other ppl, etc. it is a fun event so, this is where the 'tiring' part of the day comes. i, being in the youth committee of the temple i go to [i always get myself into all these unnecessary things for no reason], volunteered to help sell the colors instead of playing with the others like i'd done in the previous years. the thought of having to wash my hair a couple hundred times to remove the dye [only to look like i've got some terrible disease which made my face produce vivid colors like purple the next day] and getting all soaked and having no choice but to try desperately to change afterwards in a crammed bathroom filled with other filty wet girls wasn't my idea of fun :)

by the time i got home after the cleaning n all, this is where the 'long day' comes is, was already 11pm. came home, had a quick wash up... was too tired to wash my hair as yet.. leaving it for tmr :þ and finally am on the net surfing, filling up this stupid blog with nonsense and i still have to finish checking my mail!!

oh well.... i'm off.. for now!


oyasumi [good night]

Saturday, March 15, 2003

lal la la... it's a saturday night and i'm at home. but then again, what else is new? :)

went out yesterday though, to celebrate my brother's & cousin's results, which i think they've done pretty well. so it was a happy day. and so is today. why? because there's nothing to feel sad about. i consider days are good if nothing bad happens, and days that have good things happen, a great day.

oh wait... gotta check whether my *ahem* has been approved.


after less than a minute...

"PPF is pending. Waiting for Supervisor to approve." blah... god knows how much longer we must wait.


let's see... today's saturday... had class earlier and the funniest thing happened. first i dropped my brother off for his class.. wait. lemme start from the begining and get a few facts straight.

there's 3 of us. my 2 brothers and i, me being the eldest. so all 3 of us go for guitar lessons and the timing is such where we're one after the other. my brothers first, taking 45 mins each, then me. so first brother went, then picked him up and dropped second one and when 1st bro sat in the car, he started laughing. saying, "oh my god, you've no idea what he's [referring to my guitar teacher] done" i was like "what? grow a beard? wore something loud? what??" but he didn't say anything, just to see for myself. fine.

then it was my turn for class. 1st bro dropped me off and 2nd bro was on the way to the car and was passing me. he said, "when you get to the class... don't laugh. really!!" hmm... now what do you think is the situation like?? so, i go to class, on the way sorta grinning to myself, wondering what to expect. well, actually.. there wasn't anything funny lar. my brothers can be such idiots. he cut his hair... really short. he did look a bit funny, but yeah.. so? everyone has a bad hair day.. once in a while.. hahahaha! :)

well, i was sorta laughing lar when i went into the class, and he was giggling as well... probably embarassed that i thought he hair cut was ridiculous. i think he was a bit self conscious because in teh midst of class he pulls out his cap and wears it. couldn't help snigger to myself again... hahaha... come to think of it, now... it was kinda funny :þ

such bad ppl we are!

talking about hair, just noticed mine's soooo long. well, the longest i've ever kept. hmm... probably need a hair cut, but i'm also contemplating on having it really short, because there's no pt leaving it long when it's always [i mean, every single waking moment] tied up. right?? well, i've also got this note-to-self which i made to.. myself the last time i cut my hair [a yr ago] to never... ever cut it and keep it really really long. i tend to regret cutting it cause then i'll see all these girls with really nice long hair and wish i'd kept mine and will have to wait a damn long time again for it to grow.

so much for hair!!

wasted entry, yes. i call it wasted because it's absolutely un-inspiring and just plain stupid. nothing that would make a reader go "hmm..." that's why i only have so few entries in the real journal because i only write when i'm frustrated or angry or depressed or just plain need to write something so that i don't feel like i've abandoned the "story" of my life.

corny? yeah i know...
current sad/slow/sap songs on my playlist -> sorry seems to be the hardest word [elton john], the other side / dead on the water [david gray], if your not the one [daniel beddingfield], ms jackson [the vines], the scientist [coldplay], may it be [enya], wakare [saiyuki], kussetsu shita ai / owari to hajimari / arata na tabi e / houran no himitsu / unmei no kussetsu [akira senju].


enough of that... just felt like it. they're all nice by the way. so check 'em out if you're curious enough :)


it's been a rather relaxing last couple of days, though it shouldn't be... because of you-know-what. i've already promised myself not to mention it in this entry. heh!

ever noticed i like typing everything in small letters? and you thought that this blog system was that special? except for the entry before last... i like it this way... just because it looks... sorta... neat.. and small... and kinda like not so visible... like as though the smaller it is, the more ppl won't notice what i've written :)

it's all in the head! my head anyways...

i did a quiz earlier. one called "what music would best suit your type of writing?" and it said goo goo dolls. i find that interesting because i DO like the goo goo dolls. iris is my favourite.

then before that, i also did another quiz, "what type of music SHOULD you be listening to?" and guess what it said...




eclectic - you can basically listen to anything
although you lean on the alternative rock side.
Coldplay is a great band for you, so is oasis.
try to listen to everything, you're just that
cool


what type of music SHOULD you be listening to?
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i've doing this bunch of silly quizzes just for fun, nothing else to do what!! eh hehe... yeah right.


erm.. yep. that's it. :þ

Monday, March 10, 2003

just updated my website [see missing desires in links area] when i should actually be doing something more productive, like for instance a certain final year project proposal form which i need to finalize by this week!!

yeah, well... no point doing any work if my middle name ain't procrastinate. arghh..

i'll be back..

Thursday, March 06, 2003

WARNING: much angst & swearing ahead


Hi,

Anyone wanna gimme lessons on new greetings? Hi, hello, greetings are all sounding a bit the boring.


I finally got to meet the supervisor for the final year project today. Made appointment all [professionally, thinking it's a big deal and all] at 5pm [after my class] and another friend of mine who coincidentally shared the same supervisor as I did [we're sorta doing a topic that revolves the same area of IT] his meeting was at 5.30pm.

The point of this story is that a bunch of students from my class [6 to be exact] decides to meet with him at about 4.45pm [that's when my class ended, so I had 15 mins in between lar] and discuss about their final year project without making any appointment. And guess what, they took up both my friend's and my time. The supervisor knew about the appointment we made, because we were sitting there right in front of them, glaring at the 6 students who conviniently took up our time, as we waited for them to finish.

As we sat there and listened to them... gosh, I'm not so proud of my title I'm doing for the project, but theirs' sounded so... un-challenging. I might as well have done some dumb online system. Two of them doing a web-portal, one girl says she wants to create some designing thing where you can design your home [etc] virtually. Sounds alright, but we're in the Internet Technology class [unlike a friend who is doing Multimedia] so we should at least do something with the internet right? And the one that took the cake was this girl wanting to build a site that explains your dreams. Sheeesh!!

So, anyway, by the time those bastards [as my friend, who was patiently waiting as they also took over his slot, called them] finished, it was 5.45pm. 5-frickin-45 pm!! Some professionalism my stupid college has right. And they dare smile at me as they left. Bunch of POS Malaysias. At the end of the day, the guy is a nice fella. Quite helpful, which is good for me.

Heh.. well, that's the only story I had that was interesting enough to tell. As for the peace n stuff. Well, everyone should just die and go to hell lar! No, i was kidding. Just Bush & Saddam and everyone else supporting the war should. Why can't we just live our lives normally?? I don't bother reading the newspapers [well, i hardly anyway] and i especially skip the ones [if i do read] which have got something to do with the godforsaken war.

You wanna know why? What's the point? Like reading it will make a difference. It's the same thing being repeated.



Bush: Surrender now!
Saddam: Make me..
Bush: Surrender now!
Saddam: Make me..
Bush: This means war..
Saddam: Show me what you got!


Ergh... This is a very screwed up age, if anyone of you haven't already realized. So, lets all hope we don't be reborn into this... this... fucking hole we call a world.


Have a great week :þ


PS. To those of you still wondering what POS means, its simply an abbreviation of pack-of-shit.

Tuesday, March 04, 2003

a new month, and hopefully a better take on life.

hah! i'm not that peotic lar. shit, in fact i can't write poems if my life depended on it. i don't know what to write. actually, the fact that i blog over here more than just once a week is a big achievement. in my real journal [ie, the one you actually write in a book?] have entries like once a month? or sometimes once every 2/3 months. i used to write everyday. that's because i was in school, everyday, and everytime there was something exciting to talk about. now, i only go to college 3 times a week. most ppl there aren't exactly my kind, if you know what i mean.

well, if you don't, then lemme explain.

i get along with them fine, but there's something missing. maybe it's the fact that we grew up in different lifestyles. i still keep in touch with some of my ex-school mates, and that's because we're somewhat inclined with each other. there's this certain wave that goes around. maybe because we've all gone to the same primary schools, secondary schools. had the same sort of experiences. sounds boring? well, it isnt... now... because everyone one of us have gone different ways. coincidently, none of us are even in the same college whether over here or overseas. in fact no two of us are doing the same course/career line.

there's: an environmental engineer, graphics designer [who is currently contemplating on becoming a pilot after he finishes], one doing some line in accounts [finance], doctor, what's-the-word engineer [dealing with automobiles], law [i think] and then there's me. me doing IT.

everyone else has some high flying sounding careers eh? engineers & doctors... pilots... quite interesting i suppose. i'm not regretting what i'm doing. in fact i'm quite happy/glad i did it. i luv computers [but that does not make me a computer nerd kay?] i was once accused of being one by some taxi driver in s'pore. sheesh... we were chatting [my cuz, him & i] as we were on our way to the s'pore indoor stadium for the rhcp concert last december. so he asked if we were working or studying.

told him i was doing IT and you know what he said?? "so, that means you're a nerd lar!!" what the.... my cuz was trying his best to hold in his laughter as i tried to defend myself. i was like "not all those studying computers are nerds lar.. some can be quite happening" he obviously disagreed with me. then i further pointed out another fact of how we so-called computer students ain't nerds. "if i was a nerd, would be going to see rhcp in concert tonight???" there... good point right??!! well, no. he further put me disbelief at how narrow minded some ppl could be [he could be just pulling me leg lar for all i know] "well, you're taking a break lar. out of 365 days in a year can lar you spend one day to relax. the rest of the year study."

sheesh!!!

well, that's just one of those stories i remembered. many others out there, but of course.. i'll only tell them if it's related to some issue i was talking about. speaking of which... how did i get to this story? ;)