[ another year gone! ]

tired........ spent the whole day today doing a photo frame thing (and not doing my research paper). well, not the frame lar, just figuring out which picture goes where and sticking 'em to a proper place. i think it's called a collage? not the easiest thing in the world. you have to consider what sorta theme you're going with (babies, teenagers, now), make sure there's enough of everybody (just to be fair), having the right size of pictures to put... it's a tough but fun job =)

ok. only 3 (or so) days left.... well, i can't wait for it to be over and start a new year. a fresh start, everything is gonna be different & i'm gonna be a new person!!!!! >_<

yeah, we'll just see how far that goes.

was gonna write a long post on what a screwed up year i had (or something like that) this year... but then i lost my anger to bother and decided to go with this instead. a 2003 survey. it's quite good actually, since you it makes you think about how the year has passed and what good/bad stuffs you experienced. usually i'd just forget what i did the entire year, but that's what blogs, journals, real-diaries-which-you-write-in-with-a-pen are for. so that you don't forget.

overall this year hasn't been much of an earth shattering experience where i gained much (except for weight that is). i think last year was much better. more stuffs i learned. oh well, we can't have it all can we. next year would definitely be something new. no more college life (soon), i get to work (and would most probably be complaining how i wish i was back at college where life was more relaxed) and earn my own money.

for next year, i have come up with a few resolutions which god willing (or my will power willing) i get to accomplish.

1. lose weight (i think i shouldn't even bother putting it here since it's always on the top of my list and just make it permanent. like "hey, you... what you doing ligering about? into my list... pronto! come 31st Dec every year, just make your way to #1")

2. finish fics. "get some bloody inspiration woman!!!" (err.. i was talking to myself)

3. read more. (i think this was my problem this year. i didn't read much, didn't know enough, hence the muses had no juice)

4. words to be removed from vocab/one's self/system --
procrastinate, procrastinating, procrastination, pro, cras, ti, nate, lazy, pig, nevermind-lar, later-lar, last-minute, gay, ghae, fag, sness... actually, i think i'll keep sness. (don't ask what "sness" is, too long a story to tell)

5. learn a language. (no points for guessing which one)

6. have a life! (understatement of the century)

i don't have to be nicer, i'm nice enough. at least i got one resolution down... lol! i don't have to use less foul language, i'm a good girl. that should about just cover it =)

and now for something a little more fun!


Justice and Morality: You believe in doing what is right for others and maybe even for yourself. People would consider you one with good morals, and someone who would not let them down.

Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait) brought to you by Quizilla


happy new year and happy resolutionizing! :þ

on the fifth day of christmas my true love gave to me, five token rings!. hehe... i think they re-write the funniest lyrics for songs :)

i got my saiyuki reload 3. mwahahahaha!!! i went to klcc today because we had some vouchers for isetan valid only til the end of the month, and i thought better go to kinokuniya as well to order saiyuki reload 3. but of course, i usually check the book shelves to see what's available and i saw about 5 neon green books. O_o;;; man, what a color! so i dug every last penny i had in my wallet and spent on the book. ;_; i got no more monnies!!!

i want money to spend!!!!!!!!!!!! i wish i was working... then i'd have lotso monnies to spend! XD hmm.. well, at least i had some before i spent it all to buy a present for a friend of mine. not gonna tell what in case she stumbles upon here. however, i did get some... body shop cream thing, and it's papaya escence (not flavour, can't eat it ppl!)... Oooo.. i just love the smell. *sniffs hand* sigh! =)

looks like i'll only have a chance to shop for clothes at the next mega sale. damn...

[ here's the season to be jolly ]

i need to get stuff... but i don't know when. i wanna go shopping and check out the stuffs on sale during this season. the items are usually nicer to look at.. lol! and that's how my monnies disappear even faster. ^$$$^ here's some quizzes i took just for the fun of it and since it's that time of the year, why not. nothing much to blog about these days. *prods fenix instead*



You are Santa Clause! You're that big, fat jolly guy who brings little children presents and who likes to eat cookies and drink milk. Oh, and you like to sleep after those long times of work.
The Christmas Quiz! brought to you by Quizilla




Fairy- You sit right on top of everything bossing all the other stuff around.
+~(What Christmas Decoration Are You?)~+ brought to you by Quizilla

XD XD XD

i'm so lazy these days to blog. sure, i do have things to blog... events n all, but just lazy. hopefully i get a flow going soon.

so what have i been up to since the cosplay event, one wonders. well, it was back to college of course. yes!! damnit some ppl are still attending classes while most of the rest of this country is on holiday ;_; however, i shall fret not. my 'holiday' begins at 10am this wednesday... i say 'holiday' because it isn't considered one if you have to finish 1 research paper & two other assignments come january.

anyways... after CF, i fell sick. just the usual cough n cold crap. gives me an excuse not to go to the gym! hehe. monday til wednesday i was rushing (last minute is kinda my style you see) my project for another subject. really last minute. i'm gonna be so dead. after my results which were like crap the last semester, and i pull off another stunt like that, i can only... i can't even say pray or hope anymore!! just.... -__-

after wednesday i bummed.. right til the end of weekend, except i had a guitar performance on sunday. the performace... let's just say was my worst. first of all, it was at pwtc.. some home owners campaign. bleh. then there were other performers before us, all were not that impressive like the one we had last year at bsc. last year i did a duet with my brother, this time the two of us played two songs solo.

so just when it was our turn, they had to have this dumb lucky draw which was just pissing me off because of 25 ppl they called to collect their prize, only 3 were there. well, they were only giving out 3 prizes so.. but still. then my brother went on stage and he only played 1 song. we couldnt' be bothered lar seriously. my guitar teacher wasn't there so besides him and the two of us.. no one else knew what we were gonna be playing and how long.

so i took the opportunity to skip the second half of 'romance de amor' since i made a huge mistake by starting fast... the second part was too difficult to play at that speed so i scrapped it out. then the second piece was just.... horrific! i made so many mistakes, right up to the end. i didn't bother smiling at the audience or bowing thank you after playing. just belah only lar.. didn't care at that point.

we left immediately after playing to go check out the lotr carnival at times square. it was alright... although there were a lot of ppl, it didn't feel so bad because the place is big. i guess that was the point. met a friend of mine who was dressed up as one of the lotr characters. i think it was aragorn, hard to say. at first i wasn't sure if it was him, sorta looked different, esp with some tan on his face. the weird thing was they asked caucasian guys to cosplay and there they go put a darker tan on his face. go figure! had a small chat then went to look for food.

it was hell as usual. every place was taken. after going up and down and trying to check out the food court which is not existing at the moment, we settled at some swedish cafe-like place and i had the worst pasta. so bland there wasn't much taste. their chocolate cake however was to die for. i did get a good view of the really cool rollercoaster that passed by every few minutes as well :)

that was yesteday. lol! today was biasa lar... back to college. urgh.. usually i'd end up talking about RO with my two other friends. stuffs like that. won't be playing tonight. i've got really strict curfew these days. pc to be off by midnight. ;_; no fair!

okies, 20 minutes left. off to read plnunn's post weiss kreuz gluhen story. mmmmm~~~ XD XD

some quizzes i saw on serena's blog and thought..... why not?!

1. What J-Rock Yaoi pairing are you most like? brought to you by Quizilla.


You're most like Gackt and You (Gackt JoB). Your friendships are close knit, but you keep the world guessing as to where you heart lies.

2. Which dark haired CLAMP seme are you? brought to you by Quizilla


Himura Rikuou: Moody, mysterious, cold... Ok, so you're not the nicest guy in the world, but maybe that mysterious past of your's has something to do with it. Your sense of humour is a little warped, ranging from flirty and seductive to cruel and down right mean. You can't help being surrounded by incompetence.

3. What Kind Of Cosplayer Are You? brought to you by Quizilla


You are a Cosplay Wonder!


1. sounds just about right.
2. evil??? aww.... i'm nice. really nice!!! >_<
3. *coughhackcough* yeah, right... -_-;;

and of course last but not least.... pictures of CF is under the "crappus" bit.

[ fun. tiring. tiring fun! ]

i don't think i'll be blogging the entire event... you know me, always takes a few days later to do so. i just feel really happy to have cosplayed for the first time, had lotsa fun, inspite the intense heat, met with even more forum-ers and glad to know a get backer fellow won!! go get backers!!! sadly there was only one character there from the anime, which is real sad since i was hoping there was more otherwise i would've cosplayed midou instead... well, two akabanes was indeed fun.

homura's cloak was awsome! seighart's white coat was pretty cool as well!! there were a few warriors... just wow. two people from sakura taisen.. their costumes were just..... no words can describe lar just that you know there was A LOT of effort put into it.

got me self some beautiful posters.. mmmm~~ i showed them to my parents and they were like "there are such artists in this country O_o ?" that obviously means a good thing. i'm kicking myself for not getting hooli's doujinshi (though i got a few other things) and fenix's doujinshi as well. i'm happy i managed to snag jac'kee's chibi final fantasy poster in time before it sold out. whoohoo! =)

well would you look at that... i'm practically blogging the event :) oh well... pics as usual will be up later than sooner. duh! i have to do my project work now -_____- tmr got meeting and i haven't done my part yet. die lar!

my brother said i looked like a man with the costume ^^;;; which reminds me.. there were some Dir en Grey cosplayers who were guys... dressed up well, as they would lar... that was really cool. at first i thought they were girls, but when i saw their flat chests... heh, you get the picture.. and you'll be seeing some of those too. i got a whold bunch of pics of the entire group.

hooli looked absolutely beautiful!!! really... she did!! :) if i was a guy, i'll be all over her.

what irritated me most (ie, my costume) was my hair. well, it was spose to be a bit spikey and all over my face... it was a dissaster since it's so long.. just made it all the more hotter for me than it already was at the event! and then there was the shoes. should've worn the boots. hope i can still walkt tomorrow!

ahh... what a fun event :) i'm more than happy with the whole thing, and how it turned out. congrats to all successful cosplayers, forum-ers who turned... t'was great to meet y'all. and great work to those who had booths!

[ holiday report ]

ack! blogger is back ^^;; and i thought it was down just now. well, here it is. my 'holiday'.

it all began on wednesday (26th Nov '03). with only 3 1/2 hours sleep (i end up having barely any sleep on the nights before a journey because, well.. what else? i'm packing at the last minute!!) i was awakened by the sunshine and bird's chirping -- wait a minute!! it's only 6 o'clock damnit!! with aches all over, i went to have a shower. i take roughly an hour each time i wash & blow dry my hair. it is a bloody pain otherwise i'd enjoy showers. i think i should just shut up with the side comments otherwise this entry will never end!

and so, i had 3 bags with me. what? 3 bags for only 5 days??? ^^;; well, actually, just one of them (the really stuffed one god knows how the bag can stay close) was my clothes. the other 2 was a bag of books & my laptop. did i open the bag with books? of course not. i was on holiday. it was just to make me feel less guilty ^^;;

we left at about 9.30am, all 5 of us packed in my dad's car and started as usual with quarrel at the back. my brothers sometimes remind me of gojyo & goku. but these days it isn't so bad because we're all a little grown. just a little. came to the highway, at the toll gate, and found out one of the roads there was closed due to a rockfall. luckily it wasn't the one leading to penang. there wasn't that many cars on the road, since everyone was probably still 'raya-ing' and having open house to balik kampung. happily prepared with all my stuffs in the car (book? mag? sunglasses? sweets? check. i knew i forgot something. a pillow!) we officialy started our 3 1/2 hour journey to our destination (without any stops mind you. we were very obedient children... we wanted to be at the beach as soon as possible :p)

after checking in the hotel at about 2pm, we unpacked some stuffs and the boys (my brothers, cousin and his dad -- they slept in one room and yessss... i slept with my parents. sound kinda sad but... whatever!) jumped in the pool. the hotel is by the beach of course, and it had great facilities. ie, pool, pool games, table tennis. so first day i watched them play games with the other hotel residents, skin sun protected of course -- didn't want my fair skin to be burnt!! ergh, that was a joke! it looked like fun, water volleyball.. and after having wonderful views of people in all sizes parading in their swimwear, i thought i might just join them. yesh, i'm swimsuit-shy!

later in the night we went over to my aunt's place. one of my dad's sisters lives in penang and normally we'd stay over at her place but since the occasion of going there in the first place was because of a party in a hotel just 5 minutes away from the one we were staying at, we decided for once to take advantage of staying by the beach (yay!). today (wednesday) was the actual wedding anniversary of my aunt & uncle so we went over to thier house and had a small time dinner. 25 years, so they were making a big do on saturday. or rather, my cousin sister was organizing the whole thing and i must say she deserves more than just acknowledgement for a successful party thrown. most of them (excluding the kids of course) had a bit too much of champagne to drink.. haha! some of them were doing rather unusual things that night. heh!

the next day we woke up early for breakfast. free breakfast which comes with the 2 rooms (for 2 adults each) the 4 of us "kids" had the breakfast and the parents later on strolled over to the hawker stalls accross the hotel to have theirs. waited for the food to go down, strolled along the beach watching people parasailing by, the boys then eagerly jumped into the pool again! they wanted to join the water polo game at 12pm and then suddenly i had the urge to wanna swim. yeah, so went to get a swimming suit at a nearby shop and joined them later at 3 for the water volleyball.

never played water volleyball before, so it was quite fun, except i kept going underwater even though the pool was only 5 feet deep. my team lost, but was funny since we had people from india & australia join us and everyone was critizing everyone else whenever someone made a really dumb mistake. we each had our 'moments' giving a few good shots every now and then. after the game i went to have a bath and found out that that day was the last time i was gonna enter the pool when we were there. curse us for being girls sometimes -____- well, i should be lucky enough to have swam cause the last time i touched any chlorine-filled water was some 3 years ago.

by the time we'd come out of the pool and showered (taking turns of course) it was time to go for a... pre-wedding thingy. the trip was for 2 reasons, the wedding and also the party. nice timing, but bad also because of the unpredictable rain. there'll be scorching hot sun in the afternoon and thunderstorms in the evening. go figure! stupid weather... so we went to the bride's house, i didn't know them but my dad & his sisters knew so... just tag along. it was boring of course, and you know what amazes me each time we have a family gathering (or when my dad's side of the family is together) is that they can gossip about people and all sorts of stuff i couldn't be bothered with from dusk to dawn. where do they get their stories from, i wonder. if someone asks me for gossip i'd be... "uhhh, ahh, dunno?!"

the next day (friday already!) was the same routine. breakfast, pool, water polo, table tennis, water volleyball. yesh, just can't live without the water :p while the guys were in the water and having fun, my parents & i had to check out and check in to that hotel which was 5 minutes walk away. unfortunately it had to start pouring!! so we got drenched while taking the bags out from the car in the 2nd hotel. here's where the party is to take place. they figured since everyone would be too drunk to drive back to their homes, they might as well stay at the same hotel they had the party at.

after checking in n stuff, we had to get ready for the wedding. yep, the first one was just... like a thing where the ladies will gather and sing n stuff. don't ask me why, i think all these can be done without. i guess it's like a bridal shower. sort of. argh, whatever. so the next day was the actual ceremony. went to another hotel, closer to the city this time. it was pretty grand, the usual wedding. the only people paying attention are the relatives, close friends and people who were given tasks. then dinner came and the end? nope, my relatives n family decided to go to a pub.

blurgh! dressed in what was meant for a wedding and going to a pub is a definite NO NO! but did i have a choice? NO NO! it wasn't so fun because everyone else was drinking and you, being considered a "kid" even though you've passed the legal age just sucked and was just... whatever. they tried to offer me beer, but yucks! beer is not my drink.

saturday came, most of us was staying at the hotel so, we all met for breakfast then went out and around for a while. walking by the beach, checking out the shops nearby. got myself a really soft & nice batik looking shawl and some X calenders. i don't follow the anime but they looked nice, and the only other ones they had were slam dunk and i think it was chobits. can't recall. it surprised me that they actually had those on display so, decided to get some lar.

evening came, everything was set up in the garden. it looked really nice, the area but just before it could start, the rain came. the whole day had been gloomy and just had to rain then. but fortunately there was place for the table in a shaded area and the party started. the theme was beach so we had almost everyone in red/orange/yellow colors. i just wore something plain. standing out in a.. well, already very loud crowd is just not me.

the dinner was nice, songs we okay (though i pity the other hotel residents). almost had to go up and play a song dedicated to my uncle & aunt. very impromptu and what i hate most about performing is when you have a crowd who aren't willing to spend just a few minutes to listen to you because it's not their sort of song. i was quite reluctant to play, choice of music was Scarborough Fair, and i was suppose to duo with this other guy.. when we were trying to begin (it's not an easy song to perform if you've never practiced before with other people so it wasn't easy to co-ordinate) no one was listening, i was ticked at that as i have faced this situation and it's just not worth it.. so in the end i just didn't play. giving reasons that people would just end up falling asleep, which could be true since the crowd isn't the sort who'd appreciate such songs. ergh!

i went to sleep by midnight, was tired and it was getting really boring. it's always like that whenever there's a family reunion. my brothers, my cousins (dad's brother's children) and me will always be left out, sitting at one corner.. everyone else just couldn't be bothered about us, as we couldn't be bothered about them. well, i guess it's our fault as well, but i think that it's just too much effort to be a hypocrite when it's so obvious they're not really interested in our company. when i say they, i refer to my other cousins (dad's sisters' children). they're older than us and think they're too good for us.

sometimes in front of us they'll be making plans to go places and then not invite us. it's very disheartening since one of my aunt's daughters is my age and she's always involved with the rest of my cousins and if i don't follow what they do, that aunt of mine will purposely say in front of my dad, "why aren't you following them? you should mix around more" and other shit like that.

urgh... some families deserve to rot in hell. well, that's another story! =)

on sunday we had to leave already. said our goodbyes, checked out at 1.30pm and headed home. ahh... home sweet home! by the time we reached was 7pm. that's because at some points it was bumper to bumper on the frikin' highway. don't believe me? i have pictures to prove it. lol! just lazy at the moment to download them to the computer.

and so that was my supposed holiday. it was alright, in general. if minus my other relatives, it would've been just nice.

have collected my coat. yep, i now have the full atire for CF. only thing left is the bloody sword. i think i may have to send it to a hardware shop and get it cut. otherwise it's gonna take me a long time to do it. the knives are done, just need to wrap them in some foil... haha!

fenix i think it's too soft so, i shall not test it on you. fraid it may turn lembik and won't look like Akabane's knives no more! oh yes, just remembered. i need to straighten my hair too. i wonder if i'll actually end up doing it or not. just a few more days to go!

done... edited to the way it used to be... *grumbles* now i have to do a new layout.. and just when i thought, "wow, fr once i have something just in time for the new month". lol! :p

updates... later lar. still tired. and i miss RO, so.. am gonna play a bit.

*wipes forehead*

phew.. thanks fenix! i wouldn't have wanted to cause any problems. luckily you told me :)

this is the older, OLDER version.... ergh. am at college so will have to change it later! ^^;;;

don't bother asking where i had the time to do this. i was bored one of those days in penang, where in which it was the only time i did take out my laptop... and decided to use this wonderful wallpaper provided by Schlachthaus NINE for the layout. nice? recognize who that is? lol! =)

it just occured to me that it's a new month.. just in time for a new layout! hahaha~~ cf in just 6 days!!! XD XD

and enervate, errm... the avatars, which i also did, were mostly for the lj. maybe if it looks nice enuf, i'll use it for the forum as well :p

updated the wild adapter song. yep, those are the last three files so... make sure they (including the previous 4 i assumed you already downloaded) are in the same location, run the Splitter program and merge. it's that simple :) you'll end up with a zip file so you'd obviously need to unzip it first before you play it lar! and i hope y'all have named the files properly. these three should be (respectively):

1. RLS_WA.zip.SPL
2. RLS_WA.zip.5
3. RLS_WA.zip.6


okies.. now must go sleep... have college tmr! :~(