ish feeling so much like shit. can believe i can be taken and fooled so easily. god damnit. there's two things lar, one is it's good if it wasn't true... and that it was all a lie.. and the other is why lie.

so much for trusting ppl...


i'm find thanks and erm.... really, honestly XD quite stupid of me! i shouldn't have put this entry up in the begining. it's the hormones i tell you ^^;;;

just goes and plays with your emotions :p

*bounces* ~(^_^~) ~(^_^)~ (~^_^)~ *bounces*



speaking of scandals.... the more you live, the more you find out that this world isn't as normal as you may think it is. there's so many types of ppl with all kinds of scandalous events taking place, it's so funny. lol.

today i found out someone "big" in my community got some poison letter. that is, somebody from the inside slipped a letter regarding another person in the community to everyone's (ie, our community) news letter. the letter was obviously bad mouthing him n all lar. quite the funny :p

that's it from me ^^v

Quizzing time~

1. Sleep with or without clothes on?
With clothes.

2. Prefer black or blue pens?
Blue. Black seems to boring and i find it harder to notice like say if you're filling up a form which is already black & white and if you use blue, you can notice easily the stuff you filled in.

3. Dress up on Halloween?
Never did but... why not.

4. Like to travel?
Anytime :) In fact, i'm off to Penang again this weekend for abour 4 days... thats long O_o;;

5. Like someone?
Not at the moment. Really.

6. Does he/she know?
Who? :P

7. Sleep on your side?
Err... i always sleep in the left side of the bed... or is it right... wait, if i'm laying flat on my back on the bed, then it's the right. Yeah.

8. Think you're attractive?
Nope.

9. Want to marry?
In the future.. with the right person.

10. Who?
Refer to #9.

11. Are you a good student?
Well... yes & no :P

12. Are you currently in a relationship?
Refer to #5.

13. Are you involved in sports?
Sports...... unless you count the gym as a sport ^^;

15. Christmas or Halloween?
Christmas. It's nicer, warmer, more together-getherness... :)

16.Colored or black-and-white photo?
Black & White, more dramatic ^^

17. Do long distance relationships work?
Not a big fan of this kinda situations but... i guess for some people, it does work.

18. Do you believe in astrology?
Not the western kind.

19. Do you believe in God?
Of course.

20. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Lol.... love at first sight... hahahaha!!!! *cough* Err.. I haven't experienced such a thing so, until then, no.

21. Do you consider yourself the life of the party?
Depends on the people, whether there are already the "lifes" of the party present and whether i'm to making a fool out of myself and being all sociable.

22. Do you drink?
Water, everyday. Soft drinks, sometimes. Alcohol, rarely.

23. Do you have a car?
Not mine, but i drive 'em.

24. Do you have a job?
Parents: ?__?
Me: don't look at me like that!!

25. Do you make fun of people?
Sure... :P (but only non cry babies)

26.Do you think dreams eventually come true?
Yes, if you try hard enough.

27. Fave thing to do?
at the moment: play gun bound XD
otherwise: surf

28. Fave breakfast food?
something sweet.. but i hardly eat breakfast.

29. Fave Candy?
Is chocolate candy? Otherwise, Gummi Bears... bouncing here and there and everywhere~~

30. Fave Vacation spot?
The beach.. but NOT PD! >_< Hehe.. i'm going to Penang XD

31. Favorite body part of the opposite/same sex:
long hair XD XD XD (OMG serena!!!! XD)
hehe... no lar, i actually like hands first, then t3h ub3r l0ng h41rs

32. Favorite cartoon?
Anime: GITS, Last Exile... etc
Cartoon: The Simpsons

33. Go to the movies or rent?
Movies.... but damn the censorship board! >_<

34. Have you ever moved?
Yeah.. 3 times. Rented a house when i was in standard 1 (from tmn rainbow to bangsar), then bought a house a year later (in bangsar), then shifted to another house temproarily in form 4 for a year while my house was on renovation (also around the same area, then shifted back in form 5... 2 months before spm ^^;)

35. Have you ever stolen anything (from a store)?
m-a-y-b-e..... XP

36. How's the weather right now?
not bad.. it's sunny, but i feel cool enuf since i had a shower a while ago :)

37. Hug or kiss?
Hugs

38. Last person you talked to on the phone?
My mother

39. Last time you showered?
LOL... 1 hour ago.

40. Loud or soft music?
Both.

41. McDonalds or Burger King?
McDonalds.

42. More romantic; baths or showers?
BATHS!!! XD (not going to say anymore than that :P)

43. Night or day?
Night.

44. Number of Pillows?
2 big ones, 1 small one and a bloster.

45. Piano or guitar?
Piano: because of all the great composers and movies which feature pianists (esp 'the pianist')
Guitar: because all great modern bands like rhcp, tonnes of anime songs... a lot lar

so verdict: both (otherwise i wouldn't learn to play 'em both XD)

uploaded ready steady go by l'arc en ciel. should i say finally? :P

well, i do hope it's the correct one. managed to get it from set-chan, who got it from xy who got it from.... i think.. a cd?? (set said pv.. but i have no idea what that is ^^;;)

[ late but... more outing updates ]

Saturday:
as planned, what was suppose to be a tiny gathering, ended having quite a number of us. mostly by coincidence and by kidchan's bad planning. lol :p

i was the first to arrive klcc, roughly 12.45pm (?), and since no one was around yet, i picked up my sugarcoat. sure did burn a BIG hole in my wallet by hey, it was worth every cent! the pictures are soooooo beautiful and everything. 100 over pictures of drool worthy bishounens (save for a couple of katsuragi's here and there... and also not forgetting the transvestite doctor, iragashi), a cd with screensavers, icons, wallpapers, postcards... (etc?) and the best part is minekura added a section where she explained about each picture. pretty nifty eh? however, i can't read japanese so, it's kinda useless to me, until i do something about it :p

after gan arrived, he went to collect his orders as well and guess what i saw in this month's animage? innocence along with a spring 2004 dvd. they have a sanzo pinup (well, sort of) and some info on reload. the issue is majorly on gits, and their character designs. pretty cool for those who are interested in them. and of course a dvd... which according to MW has an appleseed trailer and a bunch of other stuffs... was hoping for more GITS. oh yeah... got that mag too :p

so while waiting for dm to arrive, gan, my empty wallet & i saw harle. since she didn't know what we looked like.. we decided to follow her around the shop :) basically stalk her and freak her out a bit. but we were also unsure whether it /was/ her or not. but it was, once dm came and recognized her for us ^^

opened an ro artbook (guilt-free) just to drool over the beautiful pictures while waiting for tass85 (dm's friend) and after that.. it was a whole mess of miscommunications. kidchan calling/sms-ing dm, back & forth.. meeting who who dunno where when.... etc. so when we finally sat down to have lunch, kemu, keitsu & michelle had joined us. and while eating.. bmj passed by us and was like "wha.... what you guys doing here?". basically... kidchan made 4 plans with 4 different groups of ppl and have all now met at klcc. and so kidchan, toin-girl & himi met us at the food court.

after food court, we adjourned to the playground where we terrorized it like little kids. well, not me lar.. i dunno about the rest ,*ahem*, so much so a guard came up to us and said those net thingies are meant only for kids :P it was about to rain so 4 of us decided to go back into klcc, the other kino. the rest lingered at the park.. and a few went back.. a few met us at kino. and by 5pm it was time for me to go home... get sardined in the lrt WITH NO AIRCON smelling all the wonderful odours and into the rain. well, i didn't get wet... just a bit :p


Wednesday:
went to that god-forsaken college... lol, well, i still hate them... to sign up for the graduation ceremony.

lady: how many guests?
me: 5
lady: 5? O_o
me: ....
lady: can, can... just making sure ^^;

for my friend's case it was the other way round

lady: how many guests?
she: 2
lady: you can invite more than 2... like 3, 4, 5, 6....
she: errr.. just 2 ^^;

after paying, went to the 'collection' counter, showed her my ticket and another lady asked me to try on size L. well, if anyone doesn't already know, i'm not small/short/petite... etc. and the only other size is M. wore the thing and felt like batman! XD lady check the shoulder, all was fine so she went to get a new one. left it with her first since i had to go to the 2nd floor to register for the hacker course. did that, went to the cashier on the 1st floor, paid, picked my gown and left... all the while wearing sneakers, t-shirt & cargo-pants and getting away with it. mwahahhaahaha! XD

my college has a no jeans/sneakers/slippers/t-shirt rule.


yep.. that other than that...
1. outing this sunday = unsure.
2. trip to penang from may 1st - 4th (me thinks) = high chances of going.
3. added bratja lyrics
4. added bartja mp3 (for rylands.. and whoever else who wants to leech)

toodles~

a small glimps on some of the most ridiculous things that can happen in our country: Revocation of ban on using mannequins lauded.

and to those future NS candidates... beware of the special NS camp for delinquents @_@.

i wanna change my layout.... this is just so boring already. hmmmm... maybe last exile :). somebody throw me a color. anything sides black & white!!


on wednesday i went to watch "walking tall". the movie is soooo short ^^; but a whole loada action-baction baby lotion and uber songs. uber because.... they had HIGHERGROUND by RHCP! *squeeeeeeeee* XD and of course teh r0ck had to show off his uberlicious body. actually reminded me of the next arnold schwarzenegger *_*.

as for today, will be going (hopefully the freakin' rain stops by tonight) to watch "hellboy" a.k.a super sapiens. how ghae is that?! *adds this to "most ridiculous things that can happen in our country" list*.

aaaaaaaandddddd~~~ tmr some of us irc whores & pimps (j/k) will be going to klcc ^^ i'll get to collect my sugarcoated goodness and meet some peoples, who are probably just dying to see me... :P

the funs of the online chatting world XD

sugarcoat is here~ sugarcoat is here~

*dances around*

doowah dee dee dee dee dum dee dee doo

*dances around s'more*

sugarcoat is here~ sugarcoat is here~

[ now that i've lost student privilleges... ]

rule #1608: never mix drinks.... i mean NEVER! (including non-alcoholic)

i went out on saturday, down the road basically. first, my friend picked me up in his 'modified ah-li (since he isn't an ah-beng, he's malay ^^;) car', but it wasn't a bad modification. just that you can hear him coming up my road without even looking outside... and so 3 (boy 1, boy 2 & i) of us went roaming around bangsar wondering what to do but since my other friend (girl 1) wanted to drink ice blended. we decided to go that area to find parking and to our luck we thought we got a parking but a stupid jockey was there and was saying another car wanted to park there. we kinda got there first, so b1 insisted we park there since we have the right to and not the jockey but the damned jockey purposely asked the car in the lot to come out in such a way that we couldn't get in the lot first. after that b1 asked me to go in coffee bean first.

so, b1 & b2 went to look for the jockey while i waited. they apparently went to one lane and like talked to that jockey... blahblahblah.. gave him one punch and then joined me ^^;;; apparently the jockey then appologized and told b1 that he'll look out for his car and sure enuf he gave us a parking lot right in front of coffee bean later. these two friends of mine, we all went to the same primary & secondary school.

at CB, i ordered ice blended (my first drink, damnit.. when g1 was mentioning there was white chocolate dream, i thought something was wrong with her since it's usually only available during christmas-new years) and while we waited for another 3 friends to join us at CB (g1 & another 2 guys) we chated.. blahblahblah and the guys were complaining they wanted to go for mamak so when the rest arrived, we went to Devi's corner.. this two fellas ( b1 & b2) are like VIPs there lar.. they go there 3 times a day at least... seriously nothing else better to do -_-;;

there i got limau ais (2nd drink) chatted... and was even comtemplating on going to Highland towers.. but wisely decided that there wasn't much time since i had a curfew :p blahblahblah.. then they decide to go to 7-11 near my old primary school.. it's around the housing areas lar... never knew ppl go there just to drink/smoke and... what my friends were doing was playing cho dai dee.

there... i got my 3rd & final drink of the night.... green tea. and so in the end of the day night, watching yaoi was a bad idea. yep.. never mix drinks if you want to. LOL XD (joking)


i've finished watching last exile!!! blardy chun show. i'm so in love with it ALL! don't ask me to explain why because you'd have to see it for yourself to feel it and i don't want to spoil. great story.. just everything. i wish there was more than just 26 episodes. well, i think there is or something like that because someone showed me a picture of what was after last exile so... hmm.... maybe, just maybe ^^


i should go off... ^^;;; too many hours, i hope i'm not glued to the chair already.

added ready steady go. ^^;;;

that guy..... RYLANDS!! you better buy me present when you come back :P


EDIT: apparently the song i uploaded is a crapstick version so... dun bother.. ^^;;

deleted~~ well, i left wonderful days :)

[ meme/questions/quiz.....?? ]

got this from UltraM2000.


1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
...him, my twin, for what he had done to me. (the poet by michael connelly)

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
Computer monitor.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Frasier.

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is
about 2.00pm.

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
2.08pm

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
bratja playing on my speakers, my mom talking downstairs, the fan next to me, the skylight expanding/moving due to the heat/wind.

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
Today, went to the gym, then the bank, then a shop and finally home again.

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
deviantart.com

9: What are you wearing?
jeans & black t-shirt.

10: Did you dream last night?
maybe.... ^^;

11: When did you last laugh?
in the morning.

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?
not in a room exactly... but there's a clock, pictures of my deceased relatives, fan, phone intercom (which we never use)

13: Seen anything weird lately?
nope... but, i've seen too many weird things, it's a normality.

14: What do you think of this quiz?
different.

15: What is the last film you saw?
hidalgo

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
a place to live in another country (if i'm allowed to.. but then again money talks)

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: Who are you, first of all?
i'm someone who leads two different lives. one online, and another offline.

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
destroy all nicotine smoking objects.

19: Do you like to dance?
yep

20: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
my daughter?

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
my son?

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?
do i have to answer this?


The Names Meme

1. What is your middle name?
-

2. If you had been born the other sex, did your parents tell you what your name would have been?
nope.

3. Do you have children and if so, what are their names?
dun haf.

4. If you were to ever have a child or more children, what would you name them?:
haven't thought about it... but will makr sure it's one which can be easily used to tease.

5. Most people know their mother's maiden name, but do you know your grandmother's maiden name?
i know it. just not gonna mention it here.

6. Did you have an imaginary friend as a child?
nope.

7. What was the name of your first pet?
daisy, i had wanted to call it lidya but i guess my mom managed to convince me otherwise (black rabbit).

8. If you have pet(s) now, what are their names?
have fishes... just didn't name 'em. however, whenever ppl come over, they refer to my angel fish as nemo because it looks like him (with two proper fins)

9. What was the name of the first person you ever kissed?:
mother?

10. What was the name of the school you attended as a child?
bukit bandaraya

11. What was/is the name of your English teacher in high school?
ms. rosalind, mrs ranjit, mr tang, mrs lee.. and a few more others.

12. Do you name your vehicles? What are the name(s)?
no, i don't name my vehicles. i don't even name my fishes -_-;;

people in general are starting to get on my nerves. should i be more patient (more than i already am) or just give them a piece of my mind? i try to be nice and do things nicely... but i guess sometimes it's just pointless. i need to get work... or better yet, get away from this country and everybody. there is only so much i can tolerate.

i've applied for a japanese scholarship. it's for next year to continue my masters. if i get it, well then good. if i don't, there's other plans anyways.

i'm removing the 2 songs 'featured' tomorrow... so hurry... go go download!


last exile is a really good show. you have to watch it or you don't know what you're missing. hmm.. should i even bother saying this, because usually nobody listens so... blargh. go do whatever you want!

[ april fools, but this is no joke ]

i was out... when suddenly i get a phone call from my friend at noon. (C - my friend, R - me)

C: "DID YOU GET MY MESSAGE????!!!!!"
R: "Err.. " (i didn't realize i got a msg and a missed call)
C: "RESULTS ARE OUT ALREADY!!!!!!"
R: "WHAT? So fast?? I thought it was only spose to be tmr?"
C: "Yeah!!"
R: "So what did you get?"
C: "Blabhalbhalbha"
R: "Fuh!! Congrats!! Hehehe... Shit, i wish i was home now to go get it. Argh.."

....insert a bit more conversation

R: "Hey, you not joking ah? Today's april fool and all..." ^^;
C: "Would i joke about something like this? i'm not joking!"
R: "Hehehe.. ok ok... i was just checking" :p

after the phone call, i went to check my msgs and got hers which read "Pick up the phone! pick up ur phone! results out online! I got upper. my hands are trembling". so, i quickly rushed back home, went online to check. all the while in the car my mom was like...

M: "Do you wanna have lunch first?"
R: "NO! Just drop me off and you can go do whatever you want!"
(not exactly the friendliest person in the world at the time, but heck.. i'm sure she understood)

.....few minutes later.

M: "What do you want to have for lunch?"
R: "I'll let you know when i get my results!"
(in my head, 'there's only one thing important to me at the moment... and that's not food!' i'm was so grumpy)

quickly went to the pc... went online... and checked my results. all the while opening my eyes slowly to see what i got... it's either i smile or my face drops lower to the ground, cry and most probably kill myself.





hehehe.... i got 2nd upper too ^^v