i wasted an entire day, honestly the whole day doing my program and gave up on the new interface because no matter how much i try, it's still the same problem. so after i went back to the old program, i forgot which one it was since i had so many copies.

that took some time, and then after that [as far as i could remember i left it under working condition before starting the new interface] i tried the program and it didn't work. i spent hours looking at the damn codes over and over again, looking at each step as to what will perform what and thought it was okay but still i couldn't search for any files. and then, you know what i thought might be the problem??? huhh??? you wanna know what???!!! stupid jxta network was DOWN!

bloody hell! i thought this was the end. i was so gonna die if my program is not fully functioning by well, today [since it's already 1am]. i have a meeting with my supervisor, the person who's in charge of 70% of my marks for this entire project, and i have to show him something that is working and supposedly done 1 month ago. this is what last minute gets you.

last minute always goes bad at the last minute. everything can be working, but at the last minute, something will definitely f*ck up! i'm so sick of this college, so sick of the damn topic i chose. stupid, stupid and stupid! *pulls hairs out*

i haven't been sleeping properly in days, haven't been eating properly either well, because i have no mood to eat. i downloaded episode 48 of GB yesterday. the episode i was dying to watch since ban & akabane is gonna fight, but i haven't watched because i wasn't excited enuf. imagine that. usually i would sneak those 20mins in between my work just to watch it. and today, it didn't even cross my mind for more than 2 seconds.

well, just hoping... *remembers a certain malay phrase about harapan*

bah. whatever!
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i'm drunk on johnny depp and thanks for the pat fenix... needed it! :p
going to sleep.... still can't watch my get backers :'(