WARNING: major ooc-ness from blog writer ahead. not immediately, just somewhere there. [ooc by the way simply means out-of-character]


i was reading my friend's blog just a while ago... as you can see on the "friends blog" link and she was just mentioning a few things about her best bud. ahh... yes, she was talking about me. had a sudden feeling of despair because i miss her... you know, when you suddenly miss someone, even though it's just for that slight moment, it still pains?

[here comes the ooc part, oh and i'm just dramatizing it :þ]
*** one tear, just a single drop, trickles down my cheek as i read that small part of an entry written in my friend's blog, over and over again. oh how i miss her, kindred spirits we are. she left a few months ago, leaving me alone hundreds of miles away. over foreign waters, different country... different timezone ***

i realize yet again why she's my friend. the truest bud i've ever known. just when you think you're about to forget, someone up there helps you remember. the times we spent chatting, tried philosophizing.. some of it worked though... others we just abandoned to avoid further tarnishing of our already embarrassed souls, hence why we try. haha...

many a time we have talked about how we should be psychiatrists/psychologists... if we can help each other.. and i must say a lot of other people, should put our "talents" to practice. ahh.. i think i'm begining to suck at this 'philosophy' crap. see what i mean by ooc-ness?

so, back to where i was... ah yes, this friend of mine, since you revealed my name... i'll pay you back the favor you did for me, Nal. do you know how we even started being good friends?

haha... i was just thinking of it... and it seemed pretty strange. i think we were in form 1.. or maybe 2. could be two, because i think it was only then were we in the same class. missed the chance of being her classmate in primary school though. erm, answer to the question currently buggin your head... yes.. most of us who were in primary school went to the same secondary school together. so right.. we were in form two.. and you know how all good friendships begin with a little of something called trust?

yeah, can you believe what's the first "secret" we shared? "psst... so, like who do you have a crush on?"

haha... *sigh* brings back the good ol days of innocent admiring. what we did from far and that was it. nowadays.. there's no rooms for anything of the such. because we tend to realize what people are, so even if you may like a person from far...everything is like being in the beautiful gardens of eden til they open their mouths. or if you catch an unpleasant sight of what they unconsciously did.

recently, i thought i found someone interesting. yes these days i don't jump to the "i think i'm madly in love with this guy" phase but go to this "hmm... let's check him out to see if he's a good catch" and man, i proved myself right once again. the next day i saw him... ergh... just everything about him turned me off.. and hehe... i caught him with his fly down. man, it was kinda embarassing... didn't know if i shoulda told him. he looked so zonked, so i thought maybe he really was too blur to zip up his pants. man... hahahahaha... sorry... i'm such a meanie.

oh look, i've gone off topic. typical me. well, this entry is dedicated to my beloved best friend [such good friends come in very small packages. i've so few.. and she's one of the greatest] who i miss so dearly and wished i was with her having an ice cold blended coffee at our usual cafe ;)

i missed those days [though its only been 2 months] where we'd meet up, sit on one of those big comfy chairs, have us a drink and talk about the funny/weird waiters and how some of them are acting so weirdly. i think they probably already know us, not personally though, since we're seasoned customers :p

haven't had an ice-blended coffee in 2 months... arrghh... i'm deterioating!! gimme coffee... gimmee coffeeeeeeeee!!! man, i drink coffee everyday, but it ain't the same without you Nal :)

[presses ooc OFF button]
yeah, so it's been just another one of those days. i've yet to finish the 3rd chapter for Sweet Surrender. i've been bugged by my other muse... well, considered lar... since i've not met her and only communicate thru sms-es & emails (on rare occasions these days). emails are such a bother, but i like writing them... but i don't like to write them. takes me ages to complete it.

well, that's it from me... til i have something to even bother to write/express :)