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have you ever had a dream come true? or woke up from one, then having a sinking feeling after that? like maybe someone was trying to tell or warn you about something...


i went to college today at 8.30am. we had an early class then had a 3 1/2 hour break. in that 3 hours or so we, my course mates and i, were "reading" our notes because we had a test after that. a test which contributes 50% to our incourse... and this is an incourse subject after all [that means no exam at the end] so quite important.

anyways... while we were at the syndicate room [place where students 'hang' out & have 'meetings'] another two of our course mates come in and ask whether we'd checked our results. results for our exams the last semester and we were so unprepared to 'receive' marks at that moment. but since one of my friends had her laptop with her [and was online] we decided to check... one by one.

to my utter disappointment.. i only got a 6 and 7. that means 3rd class for a crappy subject which we're planning to burn the lecturer's house for and another 2nd lower for one which i'd expected much higher for. at leasta freakin' 2nd upper lar!!!

now the dreams of even getting a 2nd class upper for my degree seems very difficult. i have to score at least 12s for another 7 subjects [four of which was my fyp and there's nothing i can do about that] and another 3 which i'm doing now. can't quite guess what i'd get for fyp.... so i have to aim for 14s. that's gonna be such a miracle. considering we'd just done our test [50% of total marks] for one subjects. that leaves two more. one out of THAT two is... just.. plain...

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and so in the dream we were like getting our results n all.. but this one was actually the entire thing. the whole degree itself. and when i went to get mine.. the guy said i'd an overall of 2nd lower. a course mate of mine who was in that same dream got 1st class. quite a disappointing feeling it was when i woke up... but i didn't let it get to me of course. it was simply just a fucked up dream.


....or maybe it was just a coincidence.