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and if i could, change the world. i would be the sunlight in your universe...


sometimes people change because it's unavoidable. it's not something they can control. people change as they grow. you would too just that you wouldn't realize it. even those around you constantly wouldn't either. you can tell yourself you won't change, but unconsciously everyone does. either for the better or worse that's another thing.

like how you aren't the naive girl 2 years ago [making us a little more... cynical?] or how you see yourself as more independent than of which you were before, or the fact you understand what life is really about and what it means to you. how you decide to embark on the journey towards your goals and what you would do to achieve it. changes are required to 'fit' certain perspectives... a difficult task but needed when it is called for.

changes occur most when we're growing up, going through the 'changing' phase from child/teenager to an adult. it is only once we're much older that changes rarely take place. by then, we've become comfortable of who we are and would like to stay that way. so, at the moment, it is a prime period where we're finding ourselves, as your friends may be. just that you don't like where it's going.

change is inevitable and hard for anyone to accept, but gradually we do... and whether we leave or continue to be with the ones we once cared for, is up to us.

it is tough but, that's the way life is. i know of a few who have gone through this vicious cycle and all i can say is either accept it and move along or try to make the person realize where they've gone wrong... which is easier said than done.

we can't always be the party to accomodate everyone... it is unfair of course because would they accomodate to your ways if you changed as well? there are two kinds of people. those who couldn't give a damn and just leave when they find a person as inconvenient. i use the word 'leave' here openly, but not intend it as exactly that meaning... if you get what i mean. what i'm getting at is like... they don't treat the 'change-ee' as they would before, ie being a loyal friend... but then again, should they?

and the other type is those who wince, sigh and accept. continue pretending that they still mean the world to them even though the ugly truth is they're merely being hypocrites. delusion themselves into thinking that their friends are still the same or will change back one day. it is a disheartening way to go... but then again, should they?

it is the same question posed on both sides, and we can only choose one [unless someone else has another formula, please do tell. i wanna know!]. million dollar question: what do we do when we in this sort of situation?

this is just one person's view so... don't murderlise me for what i have said. there are many other views on this topic so... go ahead and find out what the 'professionals' think!



hmm... i'm suddenly feeling all so 'philosophical'. has this got anything to do with mishima's book? ~_^

oh, and in case you're wondering, the first line/lyrics or even that song has kinda nothing to do with this. just that it played in my head while i was writing this :O)