it is 8.59am and i'm i college.... "doing what at such an unearthly hour?" one may ask. well, you see... i didn't have much of a choice. plans were to only be here around 10am.

however, with such privileges as having laptop [should be refered to as notebook since it gets too bloody hot to put on your lap] and when your college has finally gone hi-tech [well, they have to since it's an IT college] and decided to provide wireless internet for FREE for students... i ain't complaining :)

while i wait here for my friend to go through the usual morning hell [ie, traffic jam] i decided to blog until she arrives. well, it's been a good long while since i said anything useful anyways. but then again, there is no rule stated that blogs are suppose to BE useful. so rubbish, perhaps, it shall be once again.

ever thought of dying? yeah, what a way to start the day/week. dying. i'm sure you do! i do. in fact i was thinking about it last night... when i couldn't fall asleep since it was TOO early [ie, 12-someting-am]. with SARS happening around asia these days, i don't mind having it and dying. hahaha... i dun really care to live anymore but hold on a sec, i'm not gonna commit suicide here so relax.

BUT, when i think that if i died, i think about my mother and then i don't want to die anymore. who's gonna take care of her if i'm gone? :p sure there's my brothers... but then, they ARE my brothers. geddit? it's not the same with having a daughter because you know how [assuming you DO know] only women can understand other women? yep, so it's like that. and then of course, no parent should ever bury their child. sounds familiar? have you watched lord of the rings 2? ahh... i see we're finally getting somewhere!

kinda selfish of me isn't it! :) i have no regrets if i died today. that's probably because i haven't experience life enough to know what i WOULD regret/miss. or perhaps it's the fact that i don't care anymore!! :þ

yeah, so like love is suppose to be the greatest thing the world. and the point is? and then like having a child of your own. ermm... right. and the world doesn't already have enough abandoned children trying to survive. what about making loadsa monnies? hahaha... uh hmm... and that is suppose to buy me... ?

not to say i don't want any of the above. but at this point, when i don't have/need/want any of the above, i don't care if i never did :) in a way, it's like still being ignorant. not knowing what it feels like to have it so we don't know how much people desire 'em.

right... i'm so full of nonsense once again. i think i should stick to writing rubbish. that way it looks like i'm having fun all the time. *whoo hooo*


have a good day y'all! :O)