[the stress]
"oh my god... presentation today and i'm not ready! what do i do? do i have to present? i don't know what it's about! you better come up with me just in case the lecturer asks any questions."
[the uneasiness]
"you can do it!" [showing thumbs up] sheesh
"good luck!" [showing TWO thumbs up] double sheesh
[whispering] "don't worry... don't be nervous!" but i'm not!
[the horror]
"good afternoon, our group, group 6, will be presenting on web based devel.. i mean, web based databl..." [takes deep breath, laughs nervously] "we're presenting today on web based database management systems" [breathes out]
"so... do you like presenting?"
"it's over"
"you know you can really present"
"that's it.. it's over!!"
"hey, you were great"
"heh.. heh..." [eye twitching]
"your research paper was was not bad.. in terms of techinical, your group was good... but uh... the presenting part seemed like you didn't have enough understanding because you were refering to the paper..."
"was i really that obvious?" :O)
end.
Monday, April 28, 2003
i learned something today. about how writing fanfics is not all glory and easy and fun and.... etc. after posting it. we seem to forget the critics, those who flame and the worst of all... MSTs.
dunno what that is? well have a seat and let me tell you a story about how bad fics [and unfortunately a rather good one too] get mangled.
there once was a girl who wrote an absolutely horrendous story. bad in the sense there were sentences that would go on and one in paragraphs without much as a full-stop in between, conversations appear out of the blue without double quotes [ "" ], many many spelling & grammatical errors, the story containing a mary sue, a storyline which conveniently suits the author's whims & fancies.. [ie, one minute one person's here.. then you don't hear from them for the rest of the story. they disappeared perhaps. or, one minute they're on earth, the next they're in the clouds], and the worst of it all.... cliches.
and so, when such a story appears in the midst of our journey to fanfic land... we tend to gawk at it's existence and wonder... "what the fuck?!!". however, most of us would just ignore and move along. but then again... some do take the time [wasted i think] to read it and decide, "hey, let's do something about this so that the author would regret every writing it!!".
and so, off 3 people in particular [ones i'm using in reference to a particular story in which fell upon these cruel people] went into the Mysterious Science Theatre [MST] to give their comments and re-write the fic according to what they think it is about. so they brutally MSTed a really bad fic. but it was hillarious, ironically. because in my opinion, it WAS bad.. and deserved what it got.
however... these same bunch MSTed a rather good fic, helluva much better compared the other one i was previously referring to. minus the number of cliches [sorry to say... but i did find it a little annoying after while but skipped those parts and read on], it had a very good plot, very good english [better than mine] and NO MARY SUES!! everything was almost perfect. therefore, this second one i was refering to did not need to be tortured by those MSTers.
i would like to see if they ever mangled any of mine. would be hillarious though. honestly. at least i can see what my mistakes were and use 'em as future reference. but [yes, there's always a but!!] they should've asked permission from the original owner, because partially of what they did was plaigarism. using the author's story and adding side comments or changing certain scenes to make it into a parody and then calling it their own.
all in all, after reading the MSTed version of the really very bad fic, i had myself in stitches. litterally forced myself from laughing out too loud this late at night :)
well then... you learned something, i learned something... and i'll be looking forward to see if anyone tries to MST any of my stories. should be fun to see my reaction ;p
nights.
dunno what that is? well have a seat and let me tell you a story about how bad fics [and unfortunately a rather good one too] get mangled.
there once was a girl who wrote an absolutely horrendous story. bad in the sense there were sentences that would go on and one in paragraphs without much as a full-stop in between, conversations appear out of the blue without double quotes [ "" ], many many spelling & grammatical errors, the story containing a mary sue, a storyline which conveniently suits the author's whims & fancies.. [ie, one minute one person's here.. then you don't hear from them for the rest of the story. they disappeared perhaps. or, one minute they're on earth, the next they're in the clouds], and the worst of it all.... cliches.
and so, when such a story appears in the midst of our journey to fanfic land... we tend to gawk at it's existence and wonder... "what the fuck?!!". however, most of us would just ignore and move along. but then again... some do take the time [wasted i think] to read it and decide, "hey, let's do something about this so that the author would regret every writing it!!".
and so, off 3 people in particular [ones i'm using in reference to a particular story in which fell upon these cruel people] went into the Mysterious Science Theatre [MST] to give their comments and re-write the fic according to what they think it is about. so they brutally MSTed a really bad fic. but it was hillarious, ironically. because in my opinion, it WAS bad.. and deserved what it got.
however... these same bunch MSTed a rather good fic, helluva much better compared the other one i was previously referring to. minus the number of cliches [sorry to say... but i did find it a little annoying after while but skipped those parts and read on], it had a very good plot, very good english [better than mine] and NO MARY SUES!! everything was almost perfect. therefore, this second one i was refering to did not need to be tortured by those MSTers.
i would like to see if they ever mangled any of mine. would be hillarious though. honestly. at least i can see what my mistakes were and use 'em as future reference. but [yes, there's always a but!!] they should've asked permission from the original owner, because partially of what they did was plaigarism. using the author's story and adding side comments or changing certain scenes to make it into a parody and then calling it their own.
all in all, after reading the MSTed version of the really very bad fic, i had myself in stitches. litterally forced myself from laughing out too loud this late at night :)
well then... you learned something, i learned something... and i'll be looking forward to see if anyone tries to MST any of my stories. should be fun to see my reaction ;p
nights.
Thursday, April 24, 2003
Monday, April 21, 2003
i tell you.. the 'nuts festival' was simple... nutty. nuts rejoicing, happily sing by the camp fire... some roasting. but i had to get away when they started sacrificing themselves to Lady's Choice. it was good while it lasted. well, now i can have 'em every morning!!
ah.. enuf of the corny-ness... how ever else should i begin? :þ
am in mucho genki-ness today. finally reformated my computer. but it was one heck of a long job. woulda been faster if i, the idiot that i am, didn't go and screw up the partitioning and forget to label the damn volume for the primary partition because.. you know why?? they [refering to the stupid computer] went and decided they should give it a name. one that goes something like this:
█δ~O»Z▒╓¬εY
and how did i manage to do it in the end?? mind you, i was using COMMAND PROMPT, no luxuzy of our dear Ms Word's "symbols" to provide me with any just a click from the mouse. man... i had to try out almost every darn symbol the damn keyboard can produce using ALT + [numbers here].
in case you wanted to know [i managed to jot the particular numbers down] it's :
[2011] [2027] ~ O [2223] Z [2225] [7894] [170] [2030] Y
the numbers in the [<- thingys ->] you need to type after holding down the ALT button. hehe... :p
and so after the tedious amount of work i had to put in for this, embarked on the journey to re-installing i did! and the rest was easy lar. just installing & stuff :)
still have a couple more things to do... la la la... and damn... just remembered about a stupid presentation... oh man.. i'm so unprepared for...
i can feel the end is near... goodbye cruel world... ;p
[and i haven't even started anything] somebody help me!! arghh.. ack.. ackk.... X| [<- that is suppose to be me dead... go figure]
ah.. enuf of the corny-ness... how ever else should i begin? :þ
am in mucho genki-ness today. finally reformated my computer. but it was one heck of a long job. woulda been faster if i, the idiot that i am, didn't go and screw up the partitioning and forget to label the damn volume for the primary partition because.. you know why?? they [refering to the stupid computer] went and decided they should give it a name. one that goes something like this:
█δ~O»Z▒╓¬εY
and how did i manage to do it in the end?? mind you, i was using COMMAND PROMPT, no luxuzy of our dear Ms Word's "symbols" to provide me with any just a click from the mouse. man... i had to try out almost every darn symbol the damn keyboard can produce using ALT + [numbers here].
in case you wanted to know [i managed to jot the particular numbers down] it's :
[2011] [2027] ~ O [2223] Z [2225] [7894] [170] [2030] Y
the numbers in the [<- thingys ->] you need to type after holding down the ALT button. hehe... :p
and so after the tedious amount of work i had to put in for this, embarked on the journey to re-installing i did! and the rest was easy lar. just installing & stuff :)
still have a couple more things to do... la la la... and damn... just remembered about a stupid presentation... oh man.. i'm so unprepared for...
i can feel the end is near... goodbye cruel world... ;p
[and i haven't even started anything] somebody help me!! arghh.. ack.. ackk.... X| [<- that is suppose to be me dead... go figure]
Friday, April 18, 2003
mwahahaha..... i got something today!!!
a rather big white chocolate bunny all the way from australia XD such a lovely gift on behalf of easter.... sankyuu Nal!! i absolutely luv it :þ i ate it's ears already.... *drool*
and then... someone new reviewed... hehe.. [again!!]
and then... i got this really sweet long mail... actually a couple of days ago *grins*
i decided today to dig up my old trance stuff.. and the new ones i've had for ages which i haven't even listened to and was listening to it... man, how i miss trance music!! paul oakenfold has some really cool stuffs!! get tranceport if you must!! fantastic album. then there's dj tiesto. it never occured to me to download more of his songs since i actually think he's an excellent dj. then the other day my friend passed me some mp3s with quite a number from dj tiesto. sheesh... why oh why didn't i download more of his songs before?
i am what you call, and avid downloader. that means, in this context, that if i find more than 3 or 4 good songs from an artist, i'll go and download either the entire album or search for their more popular songs and just download... even though i've not heard it.
used to use Audiogalaxy... oh how i miss it... and they had a msg board for every artist and stuff like that.. even groups for rance music, rock music... etc. so i'd have ppl sending me recommended trance music [i have a collection of a lot of unknown artists] and some of which i heard before only later to find out how famous they really are or i'll post a "what's the top 5 best songs by [artist's name here]?"
ok ok.. going to watch a movie... God of the Gamblers. supposedly really old chinese movie. i luv those ;) those were the days when we didn't have Astro and relied on our local channels to provide entertainment. watched everything under the sky.
jah ne! ;p
a rather big white chocolate bunny all the way from australia XD such a lovely gift on behalf of easter.... sankyuu Nal!! i absolutely luv it :þ i ate it's ears already.... *drool*
and then... someone new reviewed... hehe.. [again!!]
and then... i got this really sweet long mail... actually a couple of days ago *grins*
i decided today to dig up my old trance stuff.. and the new ones i've had for ages which i haven't even listened to and was listening to it... man, how i miss trance music!! paul oakenfold has some really cool stuffs!! get tranceport if you must!! fantastic album. then there's dj tiesto. it never occured to me to download more of his songs since i actually think he's an excellent dj. then the other day my friend passed me some mp3s with quite a number from dj tiesto. sheesh... why oh why didn't i download more of his songs before?
i am what you call, and avid downloader. that means, in this context, that if i find more than 3 or 4 good songs from an artist, i'll go and download either the entire album or search for their more popular songs and just download... even though i've not heard it.
used to use Audiogalaxy... oh how i miss it... and they had a msg board for every artist and stuff like that.. even groups for rance music, rock music... etc. so i'd have ppl sending me recommended trance music [i have a collection of a lot of unknown artists] and some of which i heard before only later to find out how famous they really are or i'll post a "what's the top 5 best songs by [artist's name here]?"
ok ok.. going to watch a movie... God of the Gamblers. supposedly really old chinese movie. i luv those ;) those were the days when we didn't have Astro and relied on our local channels to provide entertainment. watched everything under the sky.
jah ne! ;p
just watched 'johnny english' and even though it is a comedy... i found it hard to laugh. i did laugh of course... at the slapstick jokes.
i think i've lost all zest for life. haha... well, that's a bit of an exaggeration. i do get excited when some things happen. maybe it's just now... during the movie, my mind was actually preoccupied. i was actually thinking of other things while watching the movie!! sheesh... never happened before...
even when kinokuniya called me up yesterday and told me that saiyuki reload 2 had arrived... instead of jumping with joy, i was "uh.. okay.. all i need now is to collect the book before the end of april, before the voucher expires". sad isn't it!
i was told recently i had an attitude problem. i shoulda probably asked what exactly was it i did that gave the impression, but i left it at that. because i roughly know why. but how can you not retort when everytime you wanna do something, you're either being bugged or made assumed that what you're was doing wasn't important? if i just nodded and said yes, agreeing to everything... at some point my bubble would burst. well, i've just decided to keep a low profile... and do like the dog does. wag it's tail and wait on my master's every whim & fancy.
the only way to get people off your case. "off my case"... a phrase i once used and regretted it. some people just don't take you seriously. when you try to be serious, they think it's a joke. when you wanna joke.. and honestly, i joke over matters which ARE jokes, they take it seriously.
oh what to do... what to do [a friend once said].
i think i've lost all zest for life. haha... well, that's a bit of an exaggeration. i do get excited when some things happen. maybe it's just now... during the movie, my mind was actually preoccupied. i was actually thinking of other things while watching the movie!! sheesh... never happened before...
even when kinokuniya called me up yesterday and told me that saiyuki reload 2 had arrived... instead of jumping with joy, i was "uh.. okay.. all i need now is to collect the book before the end of april, before the voucher expires". sad isn't it!
i was told recently i had an attitude problem. i shoulda probably asked what exactly was it i did that gave the impression, but i left it at that. because i roughly know why. but how can you not retort when everytime you wanna do something, you're either being bugged or made assumed that what you're was doing wasn't important? if i just nodded and said yes, agreeing to everything... at some point my bubble would burst. well, i've just decided to keep a low profile... and do like the dog does. wag it's tail and wait on my master's every whim & fancy.
the only way to get people off your case. "off my case"... a phrase i once used and regretted it. some people just don't take you seriously. when you try to be serious, they think it's a joke. when you wanna joke.. and honestly, i joke over matters which ARE jokes, they take it seriously.
oh what to do... what to do [a friend once said].
Saturday, April 12, 2003
Friday, April 11, 2003
hi hi.... [<-- sounds so genki like]
actually, it does sound kinda cute. it's like saying "bye-bye" and not "bye". you'd notice that it does make a difference. just "hi" or "bye" sound so monotonous... that's why you must double it to double the fun and make it double-tonous. smell a corn? i sure do.
so, it's been one helluva week. well actually no. it's another one of those stupid weeks.. but not quite. fast-forwarding past all the details, the lesson i've learned from this week is....
*** patience with parents, one must have! ***
what do you do when you know it, your parents know it.. and you tell them that you know they know it... yet they still do it? don't understand? don't bother.... ain't bothered to explain either. parents are parents.. just gotta live with them and remind yourself everyday how much they love you, how much they've done for you and the way they are is because they're looking after us. so... i can't even get mad at them without feeling guilty.
*** result in irreversible words, anger does naught ***
oh shut up yoda!! grrrr..... how can God give them such power?? kisama... it's sacrilege!!! okay, i'm just going over board... but who cares, isn't it?
i've only gotten 4 reviews. 4 measely reviews. it's so sad... after all the effort i put in. okay lar.... i shouldn't be complaining because i write because apparently i like to.. so i should just be happy it's there and not expect more. but still... i don't want so much effort gone down the drain. shimatta!!
oh look... now i'm starting to curse in japanese. well, it's for a good cause... that way you minions [just kidding] won't have to understand [assuming you don't]. i'm doing it for the purpose of saving your souls from this already corrupted language we call english. so, you should be happy :þ
uhmm... that's all folks... lost my train of thoughts.
oyasumi!
actually, it does sound kinda cute. it's like saying "bye-bye" and not "bye". you'd notice that it does make a difference. just "hi" or "bye" sound so monotonous... that's why you must double it to double the fun and make it double-tonous. smell a corn? i sure do.
so, it's been one helluva week. well actually no. it's another one of those stupid weeks.. but not quite. fast-forwarding past all the details, the lesson i've learned from this week is....
*** patience with parents, one must have! ***
what do you do when you know it, your parents know it.. and you tell them that you know they know it... yet they still do it? don't understand? don't bother.... ain't bothered to explain either. parents are parents.. just gotta live with them and remind yourself everyday how much they love you, how much they've done for you and the way they are is because they're looking after us. so... i can't even get mad at them without feeling guilty.
*** result in irreversible words, anger does naught ***
oh shut up yoda!! grrrr..... how can God give them such power?? kisama... it's sacrilege!!! okay, i'm just going over board... but who cares, isn't it?
i've only gotten 4 reviews. 4 measely reviews. it's so sad... after all the effort i put in. okay lar.... i shouldn't be complaining because i write because apparently i like to.. so i should just be happy it's there and not expect more. but still... i don't want so much effort gone down the drain. shimatta!!
oh look... now i'm starting to curse in japanese. well, it's for a good cause... that way you minions [just kidding] won't have to understand [assuming you don't]. i'm doing it for the purpose of saving your souls from this already corrupted language we call english. so, you should be happy :þ
uhmm... that's all folks... lost my train of thoughts.
oyasumi!
Sunday, April 06, 2003
yesteday... well, early this morning about midnight, i changed the layout of my blog... if you haven't already noticed.
this friend, good 'ol serena, decides to sms me earlier yesterday and asked if i wanted her to create a non-blogger-provided layout. and so i obviously said yes... and glad of it, i am! isn't this a handsome picture of sanzo?? hahaha... yes, my favourite character in saiyuki. rather big though... but i don't mind it... it fits all resolutions, which is good :)
thanks serena... for the time & effort you put for me!!
and so, on to other things...
i finally finished Sweet Surrender, the third chapter. it was a long and tiring chapter to write. roughly 4200 words. the longest i've ever written, including one-shots. man... come to think of it, it's even longer that my research paper :þ basically, whatever i put in there... has gotta do with whatever i believe in. mostly anyways. just hope i get good responds from the readers at ffNet. don't think i'm ever gonna write anything as deep as that... in a long time :)
of course serena was the first one to read, first one to review. always ever so supporting. also manage to have a chat with her last night at msn. dun usually use it though... since i use icq more often.
well, that's all i have to say really... for the moment. thanks everyone who reads, who's helped, who're my friends... and for being who you are :)
this friend, good 'ol serena, decides to sms me earlier yesterday and asked if i wanted her to create a non-blogger-provided layout. and so i obviously said yes... and glad of it, i am! isn't this a handsome picture of sanzo?? hahaha... yes, my favourite character in saiyuki. rather big though... but i don't mind it... it fits all resolutions, which is good :)
thanks serena... for the time & effort you put for me!!
and so, on to other things...
i finally finished Sweet Surrender, the third chapter. it was a long and tiring chapter to write. roughly 4200 words. the longest i've ever written, including one-shots. man... come to think of it, it's even longer that my research paper :þ basically, whatever i put in there... has gotta do with whatever i believe in. mostly anyways. just hope i get good responds from the readers at ffNet. don't think i'm ever gonna write anything as deep as that... in a long time :)
of course serena was the first one to read, first one to review. always ever so supporting. also manage to have a chat with her last night at msn. dun usually use it though... since i use icq more often.
well, that's all i have to say really... for the moment. thanks everyone who reads, who's helped, who're my friends... and for being who you are :)
Friday, April 04, 2003
WARNING: major ooc-ness from blog writer ahead. not immediately, just somewhere there. [ooc by the way simply means out-of-character]
i was reading my friend's blog just a while ago... as you can see on the "friends blog" link and she was just mentioning a few things about her best bud. ahh... yes, she was talking about me. had a sudden feeling of despair because i miss her... you know, when you suddenly miss someone, even though it's just for that slight moment, it still pains?
[here comes the ooc part, oh and i'm just dramatizing it :þ]
*** one tear, just a single drop, trickles down my cheek as i read that small part of an entry written in my friend's blog, over and over again. oh how i miss her, kindred spirits we are. she left a few months ago, leaving me alone hundreds of miles away. over foreign waters, different country... different timezone ***
i realize yet again why she's my friend. the truest bud i've ever known. just when you think you're about to forget, someone up there helps you remember. the times we spent chatting, tried philosophizing.. some of it worked though... others we just abandoned to avoid further tarnishing of our already embarrassed souls, hence why we try. haha...
many a time we have talked about how we should be psychiatrists/psychologists... if we can help each other.. and i must say a lot of other people, should put our "talents" to practice. ahh.. i think i'm begining to suck at this 'philosophy' crap. see what i mean by ooc-ness?
so, back to where i was... ah yes, this friend of mine, since you revealed my name... i'll pay you back the favor you did for me, Nal. do you know how we even started being good friends?
haha... i was just thinking of it... and it seemed pretty strange. i think we were in form 1.. or maybe 2. could be two, because i think it was only then were we in the same class. missed the chance of being her classmate in primary school though. erm, answer to the question currently buggin your head... yes.. most of us who were in primary school went to the same secondary school together. so right.. we were in form two.. and you know how all good friendships begin with a little of something called trust?
yeah, can you believe what's the first "secret" we shared? "psst... so, like who do you have a crush on?"
haha... *sigh* brings back the good ol days of innocent admiring. what we did from far and that was it. nowadays.. there's no rooms for anything of the such. because we tend to realize what people are, so even if you may like a person from far...everything is like being in the beautiful gardens of eden til they open their mouths. or if you catch an unpleasant sight of what they unconsciously did.
recently, i thought i found someone interesting. yes these days i don't jump to the "i think i'm madly in love with this guy" phase but go to this "hmm... let's check him out to see if he's a good catch" and man, i proved myself right once again. the next day i saw him... ergh... just everything about him turned me off.. and hehe... i caught him with his fly down. man, it was kinda embarassing... didn't know if i shoulda told him. he looked so zonked, so i thought maybe he really was too blur to zip up his pants. man... hahahahaha... sorry... i'm such a meanie.
oh look, i've gone off topic. typical me. well, this entry is dedicated to my beloved best friend [such good friends come in very small packages. i've so few.. and she's one of the greatest] who i miss so dearly and wished i was with her having an ice cold blended coffee at our usual cafe ;)
i missed those days [though its only been 2 months] where we'd meet up, sit on one of those big comfy chairs, have us a drink and talk about the funny/weird waiters and how some of them are acting so weirdly. i think they probably already know us, not personally though, since we're seasoned customers :p
haven't had an ice-blended coffee in 2 months... arrghh... i'm deterioating!! gimme coffee... gimmee coffeeeeeeeee!!! man, i drink coffee everyday, but it ain't the same without you Nal :)
[presses ooc OFF button]
yeah, so it's been just another one of those days. i've yet to finish the 3rd chapter for Sweet Surrender. i've been bugged by my other muse... well, considered lar... since i've not met her and only communicate thru sms-es & emails (on rare occasions these days). emails are such a bother, but i like writing them... but i don't like to write them. takes me ages to complete it.
well, that's it from me... til i have something to even bother to write/express :)
i was reading my friend's blog just a while ago... as you can see on the "friends blog" link and she was just mentioning a few things about her best bud. ahh... yes, she was talking about me. had a sudden feeling of despair because i miss her... you know, when you suddenly miss someone, even though it's just for that slight moment, it still pains?
[here comes the ooc part, oh and i'm just dramatizing it :þ]
*** one tear, just a single drop, trickles down my cheek as i read that small part of an entry written in my friend's blog, over and over again. oh how i miss her, kindred spirits we are. she left a few months ago, leaving me alone hundreds of miles away. over foreign waters, different country... different timezone ***
i realize yet again why she's my friend. the truest bud i've ever known. just when you think you're about to forget, someone up there helps you remember. the times we spent chatting, tried philosophizing.. some of it worked though... others we just abandoned to avoid further tarnishing of our already embarrassed souls, hence why we try. haha...
many a time we have talked about how we should be psychiatrists/psychologists... if we can help each other.. and i must say a lot of other people, should put our "talents" to practice. ahh.. i think i'm begining to suck at this 'philosophy' crap. see what i mean by ooc-ness?
so, back to where i was... ah yes, this friend of mine, since you revealed my name... i'll pay you back the favor you did for me, Nal. do you know how we even started being good friends?
haha... i was just thinking of it... and it seemed pretty strange. i think we were in form 1.. or maybe 2. could be two, because i think it was only then were we in the same class. missed the chance of being her classmate in primary school though. erm, answer to the question currently buggin your head... yes.. most of us who were in primary school went to the same secondary school together. so right.. we were in form two.. and you know how all good friendships begin with a little of something called trust?
yeah, can you believe what's the first "secret" we shared? "psst... so, like who do you have a crush on?"
haha... *sigh* brings back the good ol days of innocent admiring. what we did from far and that was it. nowadays.. there's no rooms for anything of the such. because we tend to realize what people are, so even if you may like a person from far...everything is like being in the beautiful gardens of eden til they open their mouths. or if you catch an unpleasant sight of what they unconsciously did.
recently, i thought i found someone interesting. yes these days i don't jump to the "i think i'm madly in love with this guy" phase but go to this "hmm... let's check him out to see if he's a good catch" and man, i proved myself right once again. the next day i saw him... ergh... just everything about him turned me off.. and hehe... i caught him with his fly down. man, it was kinda embarassing... didn't know if i shoulda told him. he looked so zonked, so i thought maybe he really was too blur to zip up his pants. man... hahahahaha... sorry... i'm such a meanie.
oh look, i've gone off topic. typical me. well, this entry is dedicated to my beloved best friend [such good friends come in very small packages. i've so few.. and she's one of the greatest] who i miss so dearly and wished i was with her having an ice cold blended coffee at our usual cafe ;)
i missed those days [though its only been 2 months] where we'd meet up, sit on one of those big comfy chairs, have us a drink and talk about the funny/weird waiters and how some of them are acting so weirdly. i think they probably already know us, not personally though, since we're seasoned customers :p
haven't had an ice-blended coffee in 2 months... arrghh... i'm deterioating!! gimme coffee... gimmee coffeeeeeeeee!!! man, i drink coffee everyday, but it ain't the same without you Nal :)
[presses ooc OFF button]
yeah, so it's been just another one of those days. i've yet to finish the 3rd chapter for Sweet Surrender. i've been bugged by my other muse... well, considered lar... since i've not met her and only communicate thru sms-es & emails (on rare occasions these days). emails are such a bother, but i like writing them... but i don't like to write them. takes me ages to complete it.
well, that's it from me... til i have something to even bother to write/express :)
Sunday, March 30, 2003
today has got to be the luckiest day on earth for me..... well, maybe not the luckiest day... but it was an extraordinarily good day. you wanna know why? come have a seat and i'll relate to you my happenings for today ;)
i went to Kinokuniya today, they were having some literature book day/week thingy and was giving away rm10 vouchers with every rm50 purchased... the staff are such nice ppl :)
i went up to the counter to ask a lady about the book i was looking for [saiyuki reload]... sheeshh... because it was embarassing man... to go there and ask... having all these ppl lurking around.. maybe even eavesdropping on what you're asking.. but it wasn't too bad because it the lady i spoke to was a malay.. if it was a japanese lady then i wouldn't have had the guts to go.. afraid she might give me some weird look :p
then this lady goes and call another guy.. assuming he can read/understand japanese.. and i was cursing at the back of my mind... hehe... thought i coulda avoid the embarassment... of being strangely into these kinda stuff... however, he was so helpful, i was greatful for going up to them in the first place :)
we first went to the shelf that had the books... right at the bottom, so we were squatting and checking it out. then, he said that reload was not there... but there were other saiyuki books but wasn't sure what they were. even i wasn't because everything on the cover was in japanese writing so i couldn't make it out whether it was the manga or what... so he actually opened the plastic wrapping for me so that i can check myself what book it was. it was the manga, and i didn't want those. i managed to download the scanlations on my pc. also next to the saiyuki books were a few Wild Adpater mangas by minekura kazuya as well [book 1 & 2 were both there - so i got those.. yes, i have them in my possesion.... mwahahaha!!]
then i asked whether there were any of the books in english [hehe.. trying my luck here!] he told me to hold on and was kind enough to check in the stock room if whether the book i was looking for in english was available.. and went back the second time to check for the japanese version when he told me there wasn't an english one... but also dun have lar... so i made an order for the saiyuki reload manga... hehe :þ
now comes the best part :)
he gives me a call later today and asks about my order. then tells me that apparently, there's a saiyuki reload 2 and asked if i wanted to order that too... fuh.... i was so happy... so i said yes. cool or what uh? i get to have the 2nd book even before it's known to the world over here.. mwahahahaha!! now i have two books waiting for me to pick up.
*sighs dreamily*
ahh... that's the biggest event for today. and that ppl have been bugging me to go learn japanese. even one of my friends said he'll join me if i did. so cool! :) i might just take him up on that offer...
that's it for this entry.. just wanna express my excitedness somewhere. ja!
i went to Kinokuniya today, they were having some literature book day/week thingy and was giving away rm10 vouchers with every rm50 purchased... the staff are such nice ppl :)
i went up to the counter to ask a lady about the book i was looking for [saiyuki reload]... sheeshh... because it was embarassing man... to go there and ask... having all these ppl lurking around.. maybe even eavesdropping on what you're asking.. but it wasn't too bad because it the lady i spoke to was a malay.. if it was a japanese lady then i wouldn't have had the guts to go.. afraid she might give me some weird look :p
then this lady goes and call another guy.. assuming he can read/understand japanese.. and i was cursing at the back of my mind... hehe... thought i coulda avoid the embarassment... of being strangely into these kinda stuff... however, he was so helpful, i was greatful for going up to them in the first place :)
we first went to the shelf that had the books... right at the bottom, so we were squatting and checking it out. then, he said that reload was not there... but there were other saiyuki books but wasn't sure what they were. even i wasn't because everything on the cover was in japanese writing so i couldn't make it out whether it was the manga or what... so he actually opened the plastic wrapping for me so that i can check myself what book it was. it was the manga, and i didn't want those. i managed to download the scanlations on my pc. also next to the saiyuki books were a few Wild Adpater mangas by minekura kazuya as well [book 1 & 2 were both there - so i got those.. yes, i have them in my possesion.... mwahahaha!!]
then i asked whether there were any of the books in english [hehe.. trying my luck here!] he told me to hold on and was kind enough to check in the stock room if whether the book i was looking for in english was available.. and went back the second time to check for the japanese version when he told me there wasn't an english one... but also dun have lar... so i made an order for the saiyuki reload manga... hehe :þ
now comes the best part :)
he gives me a call later today and asks about my order. then tells me that apparently, there's a saiyuki reload 2 and asked if i wanted to order that too... fuh.... i was so happy... so i said yes. cool or what uh? i get to have the 2nd book even before it's known to the world over here.. mwahahahaha!! now i have two books waiting for me to pick up.
*sighs dreamily*
ahh... that's the biggest event for today. and that ppl have been bugging me to go learn japanese. even one of my friends said he'll join me if i did. so cool! :) i might just take him up on that offer...
that's it for this entry.. just wanna express my excitedness somewhere. ja!
Friday, March 28, 2003
i just got an email... actually 3... plus one more yesterday from the fanfiction bot telling my that someone has reviewed one of my fics. i was hysterical... just recovered though :p
so i quickly opened the emails and read them... well, i deleted them before reading because i wanted to see it in the site itself.. hehe.. i know, it's weird.. but i'd rather look at the "collection" of reviews i got at one go than view it one by one... so, i got all excited... all of 'em telling my how mean i was for leaving a very bad cliffhanger. yeah, it was bad actually. however... i hadn't continued since the second installment of the story because i was.. lazy, need to have the right feelings to potray the idea... and also no inspiration.. my muse went on a holiday and ain't back as yet. well i was just too busy with college work to even have the time anyways.
therefore, this weekend... maybe even tonight (with the new motivation i got from the oh-so-kind readers) if i get the chance. i have begun a bit... it's always the begining that's the problem. have too many ideas how to put it and everytime i'm changing the "conversation" or scene. wondering which is better??
the trick is, to stop wondering and just get to putting it down in writing... that way, the story will go on and there'll finally be an end. at some point. heh... kinda almost forgot that i should be finishing up the story though... :þ
someone once mentioned that if you're having writer's block, try writing another story... complete different storyline.. then you'll be able to continue with the pending one. hmmm.... maybe i should. but what should i write about?? ahh... so much for writing. i ain't an easy task i tells ya!
on a different note, i am proud to announce that i've finally finished the project specification form and managed to submit it 30mins before the deadline. yes, i thrive to live on the edge. one day for sure kena lar... then i'll have myself to blame!! however, this is not the end of the project. no sir-ee! i remember saying something about 8months? well, actually.. i only have 6 1/2 months left. and you'd think.. 'wow.. that's a lot of time. what are you complaining about?' i'm complaining about the fact that it isn't a lot of time! in fact i think i'm behind schedule. imagine, i gotta start coding in about 4 months and i haven't even started proper "research" work.
oh well...
so i quickly opened the emails and read them... well, i deleted them before reading because i wanted to see it in the site itself.. hehe.. i know, it's weird.. but i'd rather look at the "collection" of reviews i got at one go than view it one by one... so, i got all excited... all of 'em telling my how mean i was for leaving a very bad cliffhanger. yeah, it was bad actually. however... i hadn't continued since the second installment of the story because i was.. lazy, need to have the right feelings to potray the idea... and also no inspiration.. my muse went on a holiday and ain't back as yet. well i was just too busy with college work to even have the time anyways.
therefore, this weekend... maybe even tonight (with the new motivation i got from the oh-so-kind readers) if i get the chance. i have begun a bit... it's always the begining that's the problem. have too many ideas how to put it and everytime i'm changing the "conversation" or scene. wondering which is better??
the trick is, to stop wondering and just get to putting it down in writing... that way, the story will go on and there'll finally be an end. at some point. heh... kinda almost forgot that i should be finishing up the story though... :þ
someone once mentioned that if you're having writer's block, try writing another story... complete different storyline.. then you'll be able to continue with the pending one. hmmm.... maybe i should. but what should i write about?? ahh... so much for writing. i ain't an easy task i tells ya!
on a different note, i am proud to announce that i've finally finished the project specification form and managed to submit it 30mins before the deadline. yes, i thrive to live on the edge. one day for sure kena lar... then i'll have myself to blame!! however, this is not the end of the project. no sir-ee! i remember saying something about 8months? well, actually.. i only have 6 1/2 months left. and you'd think.. 'wow.. that's a lot of time. what are you complaining about?' i'm complaining about the fact that it isn't a lot of time! in fact i think i'm behind schedule. imagine, i gotta start coding in about 4 months and i haven't even started proper "research" work.
oh well...
Monday, March 24, 2003
a couple of tests i just did. interesting uh? i kinda like sarah mclachlan :)
SARAH MCLACHLAN is: Deep, multitalented and Passionate. You believe in love and dreams. You play a lot of instruments with great talent and write wonderful lyrics. You fell in love with your drummer just like so many people seems to love your artwork. You used to have great curls and your eye shape is stunning. You know that you're "Full Of Grace".
Who's your musical alter ego? brought to you by Quizilla
being a punk rocker? hmm....
You are a Punk Rocker - you like it loud and bass heavy - you saty up late jamming with your band and you LOVE it!!
What kind of Musician are you? brought to you by Quizilla
oh.. this is even better...
80% Seme
How seme are you? brought to you by Quizilla
and then there is...
You are a freeform writer. Individualistic with a sense for the different and challenging, Walt Whitman and his poetry lacking meter and rhyme is just what the doctor ordered. You're quick to write something that the rest of the world doesn't accept as poetry, quick to separate yourself from the average joe. An author with a true sense of self, you have confidence in your abilities and aren't afraid to show it. :) GO YOU!
What's YOUR Writing Style? brought to you by Quizilla
SARAH MCLACHLAN is: Deep, multitalented and Passionate. You believe in love and dreams. You play a lot of instruments with great talent and write wonderful lyrics. You fell in love with your drummer just like so many people seems to love your artwork. You used to have great curls and your eye shape is stunning. You know that you're "Full Of Grace".
being a punk rocker? hmm....
You are a Punk Rocker - you like it loud and bass heavy - you saty up late jamming with your band and you LOVE it!!
oh.. this is even better...
80% Seme
How seme are you? brought to you by Quizilla
and then there is...
You are a freeform writer. Individualistic with a sense for the different and challenging, Walt Whitman and his poetry lacking meter and rhyme is just what the doctor ordered. You're quick to write something that the rest of the world doesn't accept as poetry, quick to separate yourself from the average joe. An author with a true sense of self, you have confidence in your abilities and aren't afraid to show it. :) GO YOU!
What's YOUR Writing Style? brought to you by Quizilla
i was surfing thru some very talented blog sites and... man... puts me to shame!!
*shame... shame on you!!*
they're so beautiful. i wish i was creative as they are. i love the way the background pictures nicely blends with the layout and the words and etc... if only i had more time on my hands. oh well.
that reminds me... gotta finish up some pending work, due *ackk* thursday!!!
*shame... shame on you!!*
they're so beautiful. i wish i was creative as they are. i love the way the background pictures nicely blends with the layout and the words and etc... if only i had more time on my hands. oh well.
that reminds me... gotta finish up some pending work, due *ackk* thursday!!!
Sunday, March 23, 2003
*yay*
i've finally got broadband and now i'm on a downloading streak :þ
wait... i'll update later... still got more surfing & downloading to do... mwahahahaha!!!
and also yesterday was once heck of a loooooooonnngggg day!!! every hour of it was occupied by something if it wasn't just plain breathing. okay, will be back later. hopefully i can tear myself away from all these.... downloading!!!
*shrieks*
i've finally got broadband and now i'm on a downloading streak :þ
wait... i'll update later... still got more surfing & downloading to do... mwahahahaha!!!
and also yesterday was once heck of a loooooooonnngggg day!!! every hour of it was occupied by something if it wasn't just plain breathing. okay, will be back later. hopefully i can tear myself away from all these.... downloading!!!
*shrieks*
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
it's been a boring, tiring, long day!! why? will let you know of how my day started from getting out of my bed to finally sitting infront of this screen typing :)
first off, i get up at 8am. why should i have when my alarm was actually set at 8.30am?? my maid took down the curtains in my room yesterday, so i was greeted by the sun's shining rays.. which usually doesn't bother me, but was far to bright today. anyways, got ready n all for college and waited for a ride from a friend who was suppose to pick me up at 9.30 but decided to get up late and only came by in the end at about 10am. well, it doesn't really make a difference to me.. cause my class only starts at 11am.
so i start the day at college with the most boring subject taught by the most boring lecturer!! and to top it all of, we actually have TWO classes of the same subject in one day. 3 hrs of database management systems [dbms] in one day ain't entertaining at all. especially when you've got a monotonous lecturer. so, like during the first class of dbms [11-12.30pm] i was in la la land as usual [ie, spacing out / daydreaming] and suddenly the lecturer asks me a question which i had no clue what it was. so happen my friend sitting next to me said "yeah, should be the same" and then lecturer asked, "is it the same?" so i just nodded and answered yes. to what, i had no clue until he said it was actually NOT THE SAME! how embarassing.
then he continues with, "i remember telling y'all that you shouldn't read the slides because it's meant for me, and the answer was on the slide [projected right in front of the class at that moment] and at least she [referring to me] did something correct. not reading the slide" sheesh!! one of the biggest draw backs of sitting in the last row at the back.
so after that, continued by another big embarassment. after we had lunch, we had another class. different subject, from 1.15-2.45pm and my group [me being the leader] was suppose to be the first to present. so it was all agreed upon that one of the other members went up to present only to find out [to my greatest shock] he [that person who was suppose to present] was basically mumbling and wasn't able to explain our project from the slides that i did. isk!! so i took over and explained the first part then passed it to him, still mumbling and barely speaking up in the microphone. i coulda pulled my hair out, but that would've just added on to my "most embarassing moments" list. then after that, it was continued with more boring presentation from other groups which i did not intend to bother listening.
the came the third and final more boring class of all. i almost slept off a couple of times. the air conditioning in the class was just nice, and it was 'tutorials' from students about sql to the class [yes, this is the second dbms class for the day] and so their softer more gentler voices [compared to the strict monotonous lecturer's] lulled me threateningly to sleep. class finished by 4.45pm and i thought i was home free. but that was too good to be true.
i get a msg from my dad after class that my mom will only be there to pick me up at 5.15pm [which surprisingly she came right on the dot!!] but i wasn't too bothered about the time. i wasn't rushing home for anything... 'cept that nice comfy bed in my room. on the way home, it was raining cows & buffalos. could barely see the car in front of us. got home by about 5.30-ish and realized am suppose to go to the temple for a function today at 6.
today is a celebration called 'holi' where people [namely hindus] play with colors and water, splashing among other ppl, etc. it is a fun event so, this is where the 'tiring' part of the day comes. i, being in the youth committee of the temple i go to [i always get myself into all these unnecessary things for no reason], volunteered to help sell the colors instead of playing with the others like i'd done in the previous years. the thought of having to wash my hair a couple hundred times to remove the dye [only to look like i've got some terrible disease which made my face produce vivid colors like purple the next day] and getting all soaked and having no choice but to try desperately to change afterwards in a crammed bathroom filled with other filty wet girls wasn't my idea of fun :)
by the time i got home after the cleaning n all, this is where the 'long day' comes is, was already 11pm. came home, had a quick wash up... was too tired to wash my hair as yet.. leaving it for tmr :þ and finally am on the net surfing, filling up this stupid blog with nonsense and i still have to finish checking my mail!!
oh well.... i'm off.. for now!
oyasumi [good night]
first off, i get up at 8am. why should i have when my alarm was actually set at 8.30am?? my maid took down the curtains in my room yesterday, so i was greeted by the sun's shining rays.. which usually doesn't bother me, but was far to bright today. anyways, got ready n all for college and waited for a ride from a friend who was suppose to pick me up at 9.30 but decided to get up late and only came by in the end at about 10am. well, it doesn't really make a difference to me.. cause my class only starts at 11am.
so i start the day at college with the most boring subject taught by the most boring lecturer!! and to top it all of, we actually have TWO classes of the same subject in one day. 3 hrs of database management systems [dbms] in one day ain't entertaining at all. especially when you've got a monotonous lecturer. so, like during the first class of dbms [11-12.30pm] i was in la la land as usual [ie, spacing out / daydreaming] and suddenly the lecturer asks me a question which i had no clue what it was. so happen my friend sitting next to me said "yeah, should be the same" and then lecturer asked, "is it the same?" so i just nodded and answered yes. to what, i had no clue until he said it was actually NOT THE SAME! how embarassing.
then he continues with, "i remember telling y'all that you shouldn't read the slides because it's meant for me, and the answer was on the slide [projected right in front of the class at that moment] and at least she [referring to me] did something correct. not reading the slide" sheesh!! one of the biggest draw backs of sitting in the last row at the back.
so after that, continued by another big embarassment. after we had lunch, we had another class. different subject, from 1.15-2.45pm and my group [me being the leader] was suppose to be the first to present. so it was all agreed upon that one of the other members went up to present only to find out [to my greatest shock] he [that person who was suppose to present] was basically mumbling and wasn't able to explain our project from the slides that i did. isk!! so i took over and explained the first part then passed it to him, still mumbling and barely speaking up in the microphone. i coulda pulled my hair out, but that would've just added on to my "most embarassing moments" list. then after that, it was continued with more boring presentation from other groups which i did not intend to bother listening.
the came the third and final more boring class of all. i almost slept off a couple of times. the air conditioning in the class was just nice, and it was 'tutorials' from students about sql to the class [yes, this is the second dbms class for the day] and so their softer more gentler voices [compared to the strict monotonous lecturer's] lulled me threateningly to sleep. class finished by 4.45pm and i thought i was home free. but that was too good to be true.
i get a msg from my dad after class that my mom will only be there to pick me up at 5.15pm [which surprisingly she came right on the dot!!] but i wasn't too bothered about the time. i wasn't rushing home for anything... 'cept that nice comfy bed in my room. on the way home, it was raining cows & buffalos. could barely see the car in front of us. got home by about 5.30-ish and realized am suppose to go to the temple for a function today at 6.
today is a celebration called 'holi' where people [namely hindus] play with colors and water, splashing among other ppl, etc. it is a fun event so, this is where the 'tiring' part of the day comes. i, being in the youth committee of the temple i go to [i always get myself into all these unnecessary things for no reason], volunteered to help sell the colors instead of playing with the others like i'd done in the previous years. the thought of having to wash my hair a couple hundred times to remove the dye [only to look like i've got some terrible disease which made my face produce vivid colors like purple the next day] and getting all soaked and having no choice but to try desperately to change afterwards in a crammed bathroom filled with other filty wet girls wasn't my idea of fun :)
by the time i got home after the cleaning n all, this is where the 'long day' comes is, was already 11pm. came home, had a quick wash up... was too tired to wash my hair as yet.. leaving it for tmr :þ and finally am on the net surfing, filling up this stupid blog with nonsense and i still have to finish checking my mail!!
oh well.... i'm off.. for now!
oyasumi [good night]
